Yes, I’m not talking about the experiential shift because I’m afraid of being wrong, but at the same time I’m sure the experiential recognition happened.
Either you 100% sure of the deep experiential recognition of the fact of there being no separate self in reality, or you have doubts. There cannot be both at the same time.
So please look more. Even if it’s clearly seen, looking doesn’t stop here. If you want this to become your everyday lived experience, then looking must go on.
Ok, here is my question. We have a problem here: we crossed the gate and we saw that the self does not exist.
Let’s stop here, right at the beginning.
Do you see what happens here? It’s been seen that there is no separate self, but this seeing is being high jacked by the self. This seeing is being interpreted through the lenses of the self, and now the self claims it to be its own discovery. Something the self did.
“I saw that the self doesn’t exists.” But it’s like saying that Batman saw that he doesn’t exists. It’s not possible. Can you see this?
It’s never Batman / Claudio who wakes up from the dream of separation. Can you see this?
Batman / Claudio can never ever realize this. Or can he?
Can you see when these thoughts appear, in that very moment the self is believed to be real, and is proudly masquerading as the one who discovered the truth?
And this immediately creates a division between I/we who saw it, and THEM who cannot see it.
So separation is full on.
But who is this we?
We know it’s an illusion, so what now?
Who knows that the self is an illusion?
Please be very careful not to just quickly jump to saying that of course there is no we. It’s clear that you believe that there is a we if you have these ‘concerns’. Please be very honest with yourself.
There have been some serious glimpses, probably more than just glimpses, but the remnants of self are still active with full force. And now it’s claiming victory over this discovery. Can you see this?
And creating divisions between we, and them, consciously or unconsciously, thinks that we are somehow better, we can see this, we are above them, since we can see something that they can’t.
The self is always about dichotomies… especially about superiority-inferiority (even if it’s subtle). Either I’m superior or I am inferior. If I’m neither of them, then there is nothing to hold onto, and verify the reality of the self.
The self cannot exist judgements. If there is any judgement, then it’s a sure sign that in that moment the self is believed to be true. Ponder on this. Let this think in deeply.
Scary for who?
It’s like living in a world where a few billion people strongly believe in Santa. It’s strange and scary.
Please look with deep honesty.