I see thoughts. Many Thoughts. Some come as a logical succession of the previous ones, some are random. And I feel that some thoughts produce feelings inside my chest and belly area. I don't like this ones, they feel heavy and contracted. When there is no feelings in my chest its lighter and expanding. I like it. I see that me liking or disliking something is just a thought on reality, not the reality itself. This realization makes even the heavy feelings to be accepted as they are and the urge to get rid of them lessens. It feels much nicer. I prefer to treat them this way always, but something strong, lets call it a habit kicks in soon after and increases the urge to get rid of them again. It feels painful. Why is this habit doing that? I clearly see that when I accept all as it is it feels much better?...maybe I got carried away from the question, sorry.So just as you were looking around inside a room, look around INSIDE the HEAD.
What do you see inside?
So short answer - I see thoughts inside my head.
The feeling part I've already answered.How does it FEEL to turn around inside the head?
Can you localize the spot where you are standing inside and you are making the 360 degree turn?
And what do you see as you slowly turn around?
What objects are around you as you turn around IN the head?
I can localize this spot in the exact middle of my head. Its so small it doesn't take any real space. But I'm sure it is in there. How else it would be possible to see the thoughts in this exact head, and not in any others heads?
It feels like looking at all 360 degree at the same time.
The objects around it are thoughts. It can see all thoughts simultaneously, but chooses to focus on some and not on others. It usually focuses on the rational ones, the ones that have some linearity and ignores the seemingly random ones.
I've already answered thatHow big is this point exactly?
Rationally it cant be felt. But I'm sure I feel it there as me. The thing is - I am sure I AM, I EXIST, obviously, so I must have some location right? And the most obvious location for this me, for this I AM is in my head, where else? I know very well the spiritual theory saying "We are all one, we are everywhere, we are GOD and he is omnipresent, not in one spot" but in reality I feel like a spot in the head, something that sees/feels all that is around it, inside the body and outside.Can a point be FELT?
What is it exactly that is being felt at that location?
I know very well that it is JUST a story. Intellectually I'm convinced 100% that this is the case! Absolutely NO doubt!And HOW do you know that this point is a coordinator, to which sensations report?
What is giving this information?
Is this information stored in that localized point in the head?
Or is this just a THOUGHT STORY about a central coordinator being a point in the head?
Is this story actually correspond with the immediate experience?
But I promised to tell you what I experientially feel, and this knowing, as strong as it is, does not result in actually seeing this right here right now. I am aware the last sentence is also just a story. But when I go that route of investigation, I start to feel frustrated. The thoughts in my head start fighting with each other so fast it feels like when Tom and Jerry start a fight in one moment they turn into one sphere, you cant distinguish one from the other.