The key condition here seems to be 'listening' and resting with AE. With less thinking there can be space to relax into what is, into seeing what is here ...in this case sounds of early morning. It can be this simple and this easy.That's great Faithy! Its wonderful to have a that first glimpse Could you see HOW that happened?
I was just very still listening in the early morning in bed and there was just a subtle shift in the way I was experiencing the moment.
I'm very glad that you've explored this feeling as you have Faithy. It's really important to acknowledge this. A lot of people fear that they will loose their ability to act and love and care.What is the tension? Where? It's resistance - to what?
It's fear that the world will seem less loving after a shift. It's an interesting time on the planet as it is and currently this persona 'faithy' is functioning well and calmly amidst a lot of turbulent family emotions not to mention the crisis work that is my job. I don't want to add to the chaos but be a voice of peace and love. I'm scared I will lose that calmness as belief systems crumble.
When fear arises please, as best you can, allow the experience, it is thought and sensation, we cannot make it go away, it has already presented so we can work 'with' it, pause, acknowledge what is here, notice any tendency to want to get rid of experience or to move on, instead allow the sensation to bloom, allow thoughts to gather, breathe with the whole thing, embrace it like you would a child who is afraid, stay close to experience, watch what happens.
There are thoughts with content - 'the world will be less loving', but remember Faithy, there has never been a self. It is not that which is functioning calmly and effectively. It's happening without self ... this is the time to see this. The early morning unfolds without 'you', the world experiences crisis after crisis, with or without 'you'. There is a breech in the belief in cause and effect. This is a new realisation. It can feel unsettling like we want to wrestle back control.
I don't want to add to the chaos but be a voice of peace and love. I'm scared I will lose that calmness as belief systems crumble.
You cannot lose what you never had. You have always been able to live efficiently, kindly, ethically and you have never had a self despite thought content.
When we believe in self, we also believe that 'our self' and 'other selves' shape and control the world and create reality, but this is not so, but this thought or belief attempts allays some kind of primary fear. When this belief in self begins to diminish, only then can we begin to see the nature of reality. Notice how you feel when you just listen in the early morning as the day unfolds. Notice how this feels. THIS is all that's actually happening.
Thought (the same thought that refers to self) is limited and unable to 'know' the nature of reality which isnt just loving, its made from that. The most important work we can do is to see that.
No chaos can ensue from seeing something that was never there. All that will happen is that you will see through an illusion.
Keep an eye on fear, meet it, stay close, bring it to the process here ... it's really important that you do that.
OK Faithy, these answers suggest that the body can get up and wash and flick the kettle on do all that without thought, without a controller, without self.Can a decision maker be found making the body leave the bed?
Where does the ‘decision’, the ‘command’ to get up come from?
What makes the body get up, is there a ‘you’, or a decider that commands the body?
When lying there, shout 'GET UP' internally as loudly as you can. Does that affect the outcome?
How does the decision happen?
Does a decider come in and take over, weighing pros and cons, looking at possible consequences?
Or does getting up just happen, or not?
Did an 'I' perform assessments and calculations necessary to heave a body into an upright position and then continue to take many decisions about moving legs into exactly the right positions to do 'walking to the kettle'?
No. Getting up happened after a lot of thought content about getting up. For some unknown and random reason the body just got up without a decision being made as to when or how. Same getting out of the shower-lots of deliberation in thought content but the shower was turned off independently of the thoughts. Shouting internally doesn't make a difference. No decider comes in it just happens. The body moves onto the next thing in its own time.
We can TRUST that life will go on without belief in controller/director/self. Trust that you will continue to work efficiently and to help and support others.