I don't have any food in my house that I think I 'shouldn't' eat! I don't buy food that I don't think I should eat and bring it home. I always buy something when I shop and stuff it madly it on the spot, but I don't bring it home. I had to improvise and go over to my neighbour's house (for which I have a key), and STEAL some food from her (thank goodness she's a good friend and knows that I see food and eat it and will understand. I hope).
First of all, while I was there, I ate two slices of toast and peanut butter before I came back with crackers and biscuits. No decision made. I just saw food and ate it. And I got some crackers and biscuits and ate some on the way back to my house :(.
So, I'm sitting here now, with a pile of the biscuits in front of me. I'm looking at it, inspecting it, smelling it. Oh god it smells good, and there's no EMERGING desire to eat it, the desire was there on the way over to her house! I know I'm going to eat it.
See how thoughts list pros and cons why you should or shouldn’t eat the chocolate.
These opposing thoughts might even try to argue or convince each other what to decide.
What cons? I've already stolen it and touched it - can't take it back now. And why shouldn't I eat them? Well, they're sugar and fat I suppose, and they're not particularly good for me, but but I'm not overweight and this once isn't going to hurt at all. Not at all.
Pros? Omg, I just WANT to eat it. There's no choice to be made. I KNOW I'm going to eat it.
Try to think of more cons... Can't think of any reason I should NOT eat these biscuits and corn chips. AND go get some more and just apologise.
I cannot think of ANY reasons why I should not eat these biscuits and corn chips. I don't have any opposing thoughts. oh dear.
What is it that is considering these options?
. . . . . I don't know. There's just an intense desire to stick these things in my mouth and TASTE them.
Is there anything that is listing the pros and cons, or only just thoughts appear about pros and cons? – look very carefully
There's nothing listing pros and cons. There's just listing pros and cons. And there are no cons.
Now, make a decision, but whatever you decide, don’t eat the chocolate (yet). Rather just pay very close attention when the decision is made. Particularly pay attention to thoughts, as the decision is made.
Let’s say a thought appear: “I decided not to eat the chocolate”
So the thought about the decision just appeared. What made that thought to appear?
I can't remember making any decision - I just knew that I was going to eat the food if I went over there to steal it. Nothing made the thought appear. It was there.
Can you find the thing that made that decision, apart from the presence of the thought about the decision?
No I can't find anything that made that decision. I saw the food and I knew I was going to eat it. No-one makes the decision.
How exactly the decision is made?
No idea. I have absolutely no control over the decision.
Now, act according to the decision. (Either eat or don’t eat the chocolate.)
What is it that performed the chosen action?
Thank god. Hand reached out and it's in my mouth before I've finished reading the question.. Nothing performed the action. The hand just grabbed and I ate.