Yes! Maybe this not a feeling at all.even though I said it "feels like: I'm thinking or choosing. Maybe it's not a feeling at all.
Exactly! You’ve discovered something very important.If it appears or seems to be, doesn't mean that it is.
Be careful with expressions with ‘SEEMS’. A SEEMING thing is NOT an actual thing.
Every time a sentence starts with “it seems” or “it feels like” is the sure sign that what will follow is just an analogy, just the content of a thought, and not an actual bodily sensation. It’s not coming from looking at AE directly, rather from thought speculation.
Can you see this?
Try everything you can to FEEL a thought. Is it possible? Can a thought be felt?The feeling of thinking is really just the awareness of thoughts arising.
“It FEELS LIKE a choice is being made” – can you see the trick of thoughts here?Like the thought "either I can go for a walk or take a drive", then one is chosen and that choice is executed. It feels like a choice is being made. What does this choosing feel like? The feeling is an impulse to move in a specific direction.
Is an impulse to move = choosing?
Or the impulse of move is just a sensation?
Let’s take a look at the idea that there is a someone who is focusing attention.The feeling of choice/choosing is trickier - it's being aware of the different thoughts that have arisen and then putting attention in one direction or another.
Close your eyes and sit quietly for 10-15 minutes.
Watch what focus does.
Focus on focusing, attention itself.
Is there anything moving attention, or it moves by itself?
Is there a focus-er?
Hold focus on breath - see how it moves to thoughts, sensations, sounds.
Is there something controlling it?
What moves attention?
Is thought in control of attention?
Please focus on this ‘feeling of presence’. What kind of feeling is it?The I is just a sense, a feeling that there is a me located within the body. What does it feel like? a presence.
Please avoid speculations or analogies.
I’ve given you lots of questions this time. Please don’t rush through them. So it slowly and be very thorough.