Good. Expectations of particular experiences need to be dropped.. Absolut realization of seeing life as a whole.
I'm not looking of some sort of experience
Great! This is excellent. Yes. It's as if thoughts about needing to control things make it seem that there is a self that must control everything. But as you say, everything was happening without 'you controlling'. This is very helpful to notice. See if it is possible to notice more situations in which a 'you' is not 'controlling' what happens?. Everyone was making all the efforts for us to buy the house that we like.
And there was l with no control about anything.
After we leave l took the calculator to do some calculations and my wife said: why are you doing that? There are people making that for us. Stop thinking and relax and just see what is going on now. Great women.
I felt clearly oneness in this afternoon experience in witch l hadn't any control.