Hmmm.. On some level there's still a feeling that 'I' am doing things as I go about my day. Mostly I don't think about it, just get on with stuff. On a deeper level I know that there's actually no one here to control anything. Somehow its all just happening by itself. I have no idea how, just that 'I'm' not doing it :-).How does the sense of control show up, at this point?
Is there any sense of ownership, or doer-ship in everyday actions?
How do things happen?
How are decisions made?
Decisions are made seemingly in response to thoughts stimulated by events or other thoughts occurring. I can't drill down to the precise moment the decision is made, it's more like I'm aware of it and actions happen. If I try and think about it then it's already in the past. A done deal. A memory, not Actual Experience.
I'll see how it goes for a while. I'm going to see if that open, spacious feeling returns while I keep watching stuff happen. It's definitely faded now, like a fond memory. My monkey mind questions if it really happened or did this person just stop thinking for a few seconds.. When it happened there was categorically nobody here though, so I know that the sense of a person is just a story.Third, if a nagging interest in this aspect does arise later but the experience has not become persistent, there ARE more advanced practices I can point you to, to try to deepen that experience, after Liberation Unleashed. For our purposes here in The Gate forum, the point is simply to see clearly that there is no person. This was seen clearly.
I'm thinking I might go back and re-read some of the material on this stuff now that I have glimpsed through the veil as it were. (Tony Parsons, Sailor Bob etc.) Do you think that's a bad idea?