Ok, let’s examine confusion
Yes it Wasn’t the post confused, it’s me confused! The thoughts and mind .
Yes i think There are ideas in me that i feel some are 'right' and some are 'wrong', or more like i think some are clear and aligned with truth and some are muddied .
Yes there Is a disconnect between ideas and feelings, i think so in some instances
I don’t know if i can describe my confusion, do you mean in daily life, or in this inquiry or are they one and the Same?
As you know, life is very challenging right now, and it’s getting so more by the day, this brings up confusion in my mind and psyche trying to handle it all. Arguing with reality and feeling somewhat hopeless . In terms of this inquiry , i don’t know what can take me from the intellectual understanding of all this to the visceral knowing. I don’t know what is blocking me and this is confusing . Some contradictory ideas would be at some level having the idea that everything will work out in life and that being a basically good person trying to be myself and caring about life should mean that it shouldn’t have to be hard on the one hand, and yet being able to see that this is really ridiculous when you think of how most of the world lives. As you know i am tormented by every system around me being broken and seeing so much greed and corruption, even though i know there is so much good around too. These are all conflicts and cause confusion. I don’t want things to be random and chaotic at some fundamental level, but 'GOOD'
We all do this. An awakened 'person' does this and recognizes it as a wishful story, then lets it go. Those asleep, cling to the possibility that somehow it might magically manifest. ..i might add that the awakened one will always allow the possibility that anything is possible - just not cling to hope.
What happens for you ?
This relates to what i was just saying, yes there Is part of me, the idealist part that really wants things to be different and good and peaceful. I think i do cling to the possibility that it might magically manifest, hmmm. I think i cling to hope Vince , i do!
Yes, i imagine that this is so for everybody. It certainly is for me. Do we live in regret ? ..or accept that it is past tense ?
I think i don’t live in regret really. For the most part i accept the past tense, there is a tiny regret but not much! I kind of avoid the last, i don’t like looking at old pics, makes me nostalgic, so i guess this is regret?
It's not a case of "should be", but a case of It is what it IS.
Just like the tree that grew with a lean because of the constant wind. We can lament the idea that it's not symetrical, or revel in the wonder at the beauty in that it survived the conditions
This is beautiful how you put this Vince, i cried when i read it ! I like the reveling instead of the lamenting. What IS can be devastating like the loss of my ex's son, it’s hard not to lament the big things, but yes i do Understand what you say, it just IS
Ok, i know that i tell myself stories to feel better , yes it does for me as you asked meet one of the ideas about confusion . You’re right, without stories the world can’t exist but at one level, it seems so pointless if they are all just stories and not what IS
Your post made me cry again when you said i am standing in gold up to my knees. It’s like at some level i know this but i am veiled. SEEKING TO STOP SEEKING....
I am looking FOR instead of looking AT, you nailed it!
Every day i try to start my day with gratitude and acceptance and many days it gets even worse than i can imagine, it’s so strange, it’s like test after test!
But i know i am blessed Vince , even amongst it all.
There is no movement required. Just a perspective shift.
Just stop right now. Close your eyes and listen to sounds that you normally ignore. Do you hear them ? They were always there. Just not noticed.
Now expand this to your idea of THIS.
Yes like The fridge always running, that you don’t notice, of if you live near an airport you don’t notice the planes flying by anymore , or do the fish know they are in water, so much unnoticed, why is the human condition this way, i know it’s a mystery and how to shift the persepecive, i know I’ve asked yo this a million times....
Funnily enough as i was writing to you, a song came one that i didn’t know and it caught my attention, guess what the name is, SURRENDer, these are some of the lyrics as far as i could make out..
Can there be synchronicity without being in magical thinking? What do you think?
'Raise the white flag and surrender to this life, don’t question how or why, pour the whiskey , smell the roses, tell some jokes, laugh before you die
It is all BS, life is too short, always think that we’ll get it done just in time to go , somewhere who knows where, maybe some place better, but surrender, when it’s time to question how or why, lay your arms down and surrender, you will feel amazing,
Amazing,what is fiction what is real, we been programmed what to feel by the tv by the pen. Let your heart open your eyes again, your eyes again
You know life’s too short to live it in fear, only thing you will regret is what you do not do at all even more than that stupid things you do. LOST IT HERE
OK THATS IT