Simply Seeing

[SilentSeeing]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?

A support to truly see, to see through the illusion. By this I mean seeing that there is no self, that everything is subject to change. I also understand this to mean that the “self” I believe myself to be constantly identifies with my thoughts and emotions and that these thoughts and emotions create my illusion.


What are you looking for at LU?

I hope and wish to find a direct pointer as support to finally see the truth and to be able to shed the thick layers which isolate and separate me. I wish to find the truth so that I can start seeing things as they are and not as I want them to be.


What do you expect from a guided conversation?

What I’m looking for in a guided conversation is a space that is honest, direct, and free of judgment. I value clarity and sincerity, and I would like the dialogue to unfold at a pace that allows for real seeing rather than pressure.
At the same time, I’m open to being challenged. I don’t need to be protected from the truth. I’m here because I genuinely want to see. There is a readiness in me to be shaken out of familiar patterns, even if that feels uncomfortable.
Some time ago, I participated in a five-day Zen-based process called The Art of Dying, where we explored letting go, holding on, and the experience of dying. During that process, there was a moment when it became very clear to me that what I usually take to be reality is, in many ways, constructed, shaped by thought. I could see how much of my experience, including my relationships, is created through thinking, and how much simpler everything actually is underneath that.
This glimpse was both profound and unsettling. It showed me that I hadn’t really been living as fully as I thought and then, quite quickly, that clarity faded again.
Since then, there has been a quiet but steady longing in this more deeply. Not from a place of urgency, but from a sincere wish to see clearly and live from that clarity.


What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?

I began this journey about six years ago. Like many people, it started with what I believed to be depression. I began body-based therapy and joined trauma-sensitive self-exploration groups. Over time, I found myself having unexpected experiences that felt more spacious and “spiritual” in nature, even though that wasn’t my original intention. Gradually, it became clear to me that there might be something beyond therapeutic work, and this led me to continue exploring.

Since then, I’ve taken part in various approaches and trainings, including spiritual dearmouring, family constellations, energy healing, and Shaktipat. Each of these has offered something valuable, yet none of them has fully answered what I’m ultimately looking for.

At times, there is a sense of wanting to step away from the search, simply because it can feel circular. And yet, there is also a clear recognition that something essential is unresolved. I can’t quite return to living unconsciously in the same way as before. There is a quiet but persistent sense that clarity matters deeply.

I haven’t been working for the past two years. My previous job in IT felt increasingly disconnected from what feels alive and meaningful to me, and I’m still in the process of finding a new direction.

In a family constellation, I was able to clearly see how strongly I tend to move into thinking. It feels almost automatic, as if attention is constantly pulled into the head. There is a heaviness in that, and a sense of limitation. In meditation, there are moments of deep ease, even a kind of quiet joy and connection with the heart. But these states don’t seem to remain once I return to daily activity, which has raised important questions for me.

If I’m asked how willing I am to question my beliefs about the self, I would say a 9. There is genuine willingness, but also a healthy respect for what this involves. There is some fear present and at the same time, a strong sense that this inquiry truly matters.

More than anything, I can feel how much energy is tied up in identification with thoughts and patterns, and how exhausting that can be. This creates a sincere interest in understanding what is actually true, beyond those patterns.


On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?

9