Remembering

[Catherine1]

Hi Vivien,Just touching base. I haven't heard from you - which is completely fine, but I just wanted to make sure that I haven't missed something incase you had written back.
I've been in a different reality lately. My son has been in hospital with IBS and other gut related problems. I have had to be by his side virtually 24/7 and he has been my sole focus. Throughout it all, noticing that there is nothing but the experience, no person actually going through something, no 'me' 'holding it all', no entity called Catherine doing anything. And also no other person doing anything. just the noticing of now, now, now and the vastness of the emptiness. The less 'me' there is the more normal all this becomes. The less me there is the more ordinary, simple, true and natural it all is.
There is a lot of noticing and questioning happening, understanding and erasing. Old patterns evaporating, while others seem to need time and space to unravel. All happening to no one in the big space of no thingness.

I hope you're well and not troubled by health stuff.
I'll keep in touch if that is ok. No expectations.
Thank you for everything. So much gratitude for you and you care and time.
xxx Catherine

[Vivien]

Hi Catherine,

I'm so sorry for my late reply. Something went amiss with the page, I've checked in, but I haven't seen any new messages from you, until I went up to the page and I saw that you left 2 new messages I haven't seen yet.

I'm really sorry to hear that your son is unwell. I assume you are very busy with helping your son, so we can postpone the zoom session if you'd like. It's up to you. There is no rush. Based on what you wrote, you seem to be doing well given the circumstances.

How old is your son? I'm wondering if teaching him to just observe the pain and the discomfort he experiences without adding the judgemental overlay (story about it) might could help him... ? I don't know, he might not be open to it. It's just a suggestion.

Take care,
Vivien