The biggest change is that I used to have this terrible feeling that 'I was wasting my life', and it manifested as pressure to make every day 'worthwhile', planning to achieve this, resisting my chronic illness because it was stopping me living a 'full life'... comparing my quiet days with other people and so on. A lot of this pressure has dropped away and I can enjoy moments more. Sure I'm still resisting pain when it's very strong and uncomfortable like today, and sometimes guilt comes up when I have supposedly 'wasted my time' or not done something 'i' planned to do, but less so - the guilt in particular is let go of almost immediately when it arises, since I know there was no one in control and what happened, happened.So there are changes and all is the same, lol.
Sum up what did change for the records ;-).
There are fewer internal arguments - by which I mean i don't agonise much over decisions, what to do etc. as I know that it's all just a story and again, what will happen, will happen. I feel somewhat easier in my being.
New bits of insight come in different situations.
There are still lots of expectations about how things 'should' be after gating, but I realise that these are stories too - things are as they are and there is no 'I' here to change things.
Of course, some of the time I'm sucked into story but often if it gets heated or tense I usually realise a little while after and can let go of the guilt around it.