I appreciate your response.
I took some time to consider this and realized the observer is mind or just a thought. The observer is the one who inquires but I recognize this sense of observing is the one inquiring but still is just a thought within spaciousness. Inquiry is using this observer to in a sense challenge its validity - and in the end it has none. The only thing valid is direct experience which is not personal.Have you seen really an observer watching experience ? or is it just a thought about an observer?
Yes, this is a thought. I see that - the mind is merely trying to describe here what can't be described and there is no one that realizes it. It just is. But clearly at some level I am being hypnotized by thought.yet there is something beyond this observer that is unaffected by the experience.
This sentence is only thoughts. All what is said is not known through the five senses. Yes there are experiences and a knowing of them, there is no you doing the knowing.
Good catch! There is only one "I" or "I Am" - the sense of existence. There is only one "I" but it is also only a thought. And while something sees, hears, touches, etc. - the "I" is just a thought but is still identified with by mind at some level.I can admit that you used “I” to the concern of communication but you added a “small i”. Have you seen an “I” and a “small i“ in direct experience? Can a thought “I” see or do something?
There is a thought/desire in mind to create some outcome. There appears to be some utility in mind to manifest. It starts with the imagination that sees a potential outcome and then mind engages to generate a plan to create it. But this is just a belief or a thought. Yet, there is still resistance - there is still a desire to make something happen and I follow this desire as I attempt to direct my business to produce some outcomes I believe are important. What I see is there is no one having this desire - the desire simply appears and seems to direct actions in the direction of the desire. There is fear that says if I don't take action I will become destitute or fail in some way. At one level this is seen for what it is but it still identified with as a "me" trying to make something happen.only the appearance of someone attempting to take some action to create some outcome.
Is it really an appearance or a thought about someone attempting ….?
Is this just not the play of the body-mind believing? It clearly appears to be happening and the challenges faced by the character "David" in the play are experienced at some level as real. That is my current experience. At the same time, I do see these are just thoughts attempting to explain what can't be explained. There is a story that is reflected out that are still identified with. That said, when I engage direct experience - the story fades and I am just here now as awareness. But even the attempt to be in "direct experience" feels as if someone is having that experience.Is it your business, does “I” or “you” have a business? Is an “I” looking for a job or taking any actions?
This is helpful - yes efforting is still happening but there is no one efforting. Desiring is happening but no one desiring. The body-mind appears to be taking specific actions towards specific outcomes. And something is very confused here ... confusion is happening for the one still trying to figure this out but that of course is just mind.Are you really seeing someone in direct experience or all what you say is a thought?
You need to look at the habit of putting a subject before a verb. Raining instead of it is raining, there is working on… instead of someone is working on… Seeing is happening instead of I see. Walking is happening instead of I walk.
This makes sense and I suppose if there is anything to 'do' it is to keep noticing how something attaches to thought and believes it to be personal, rather than an impersonal unfolding. There is greater space to see this but there is also the experience of a kind of magnetic force that re-identifies. At some level I do KNOW there is no one doing anything, that there is only what is happening with no personal self that it is happening to.The looking is necessary to see that there is no you in the first place, there is only awareness. Awareness is not personal. The world is not of your concern. Here we are looking for you. Yes there are thoughts and feelings about the world, there is knowing of these but they are not happening to you.
Yes, I do realize this, there is a trajectory of conditioning that will continue in this body-mind. I have had glimpses this is not me but just an unfolding that is impersonal. As for the other questions above - there is work to be done to see there is not a decision maker, there is no personal free will and no one responsible.Habits and conditionings will be here after seeing through the illusion of a separate self. There is a work to be done and there are groups in facebook which can help you.
Is there a decision maker ?
Is there someone having free will?
Do you still believe that you are responsible for things happening ?
And if you feel I am better served by those groups on Facebook - happy to know about them. I do appreciate all you have done to support me in seeing more clearly.