I noticed when watching without sound I was more invested in what was happening in the moment. Just watching. With the commentary, I started learning stories about different players and teams. I started to feel more invested in outcomes. I felt the players emotions based on what the narrator was saying. It certainly changed my experience of watching the game because I was thinking more about what was happening then watching what was happening.
No, not at all.Is the commentary on the soccer game a necessity for the play to happen?
No, life just unfolds...the narration appears and shares its opinion on events based on past/future memories or decides it likes something and not something else. It does not actually influence the events, just thoughts and feelings about them.And in the same way, is the inner narration of thought a necessity for the play of life to happen?
I apologize for the delay. This is usually due to my work schedule. I worked the past three nights in a row. I did the exercise yesterday afternoon, but just didn't have the time to write back. I also probably overthink what I want to write and it takes me longer then it needs to. I really try to spend time in each exercise before replying. I'm also 7 months pregnant and I've never felt so scatter brained in my life and my time management has been terrible the past few weeks. I will do my best to make the time to respond more quickly. This is something that is important to me and I really appreciate you taking the time to work with me. My sister just got home from her third hospitalization since the accident. I have been trying to help with her care as well. She seems to be doing better. Thanks for asking.
I will say that fear does come up a bit with some of this, because I'm about to have a baby and this fear/thought comes in that if I'm "awake" I might not be a good mom or something? I've noticed this fear before whenever I have big life events coming up. It's like that "ego" part really wants to take over and drive the bus and I notice I don't spend as much time in meditation or spiritual practice. It feels frustrating that that happens and I don't want to do that. Any suggestions on how to work with that would be appreciated!