I’m a bit confused. I thought that the ‘I’ and the separate self were the same thing, or were at least reliant on each other. That ‘I’ was a label used to describe the separate self. And if the separate self does not exist, then how can I exist?
You exist, but not as a separate self. What doesn’t exist other than a mental construct, is the separate self.
But you are not that mental construct.
But just because you are not a mental construct, it doesn’t mean that you don’t exist.
You exist, but not as Chris, not as the thought story, and not even as the body.
Something is aware, here now.
V: The question is if this ‘something’ that knows or aware of these letters on the screen is Chris, the person?
Is there a Chris reading these words, or just reading happening (and you are just aware of the phenomenon called ‘reading happening’)?
C: I clearly see that reading is just happening, that it is not ‘Chris’ doing the reading.
Yes, it’s not Chris who is doing the reading. But something is aware of these letters, isn’t?
That something that knows these letters, is not Chris.
But these letters on the screen are known!
We are not going to deny existence.
That would be just as much a belief than the belief in a separate self.
You are always here. You cannot not be here.
But you are here NOT as ‘Chris’, not as a separate self.
But not Chris.
But you are.
I don’t understand how it can be a thought and a sensation at the same time.
Look. You are neither a thought, nor a sensation.
And yet, you are.
Just notice, that you exists.
You aren’t dead, right?
If you are not dead, then you exist.
Please tell me, are you dead?
Really look into this. Deeply investigate if you are alive or you are dead.
I thought I was making progress when I realised (or thought I realised) that the ‘I’ was just a thought, but now I’m just really confused.
Yes, and this is a progress to discover that you are not the thought of I. But just because you are not the thought of I, it doesn’t mean that you don’t exist.
Something is aware of the thought of I, isn’t it?
Something realizes that I is a thought, isn’t?
But what if you are not the I-thought, but the one who is aware of that I-thought?
If you think it's best, I'm happy to give it a go. Sorry Vivien, I feel a bit lost with it now. I'll keep looking in the meantime.
It’s up to you if you want to inquiry face-to-face. It can be useful, but it’s up to you. I’m sending you some details in a private message (so please watch out for that), so you can decide if you want to have a session or not.