There is a crack in everything

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Stacy,

Yes, I had seen those two videos a couple of days ago, when you first told me to. But I saw them again, and after that I wanted to watch more from Lisa. While listening to one of her talks, I felt struck by the certainty that everything that happens is a manifestation of the Absolut, completly transpersonal, and that nothing, whatsoever, is personal or could ever be. Fear and expectations included - simply manifestations of the One. I am letting this sink.

And I keep doing the butt/chair exercice every time I get a chance. There is no real separation between me and the chair. But I also feel that I need to investigate this deeper.

Love
Silvia

[Anastacia42]

Hi

But I also feel that I need to investigate this deeper.

Why? Beware of unrealistic expectations. You have seen what needs to be seen. The disorientation you report is a sign of seeing. Don't get caught in looking & looking for more than there is.

Is there a separate self anywhere? Has there ever been?

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

I felt struck by the certainty that everything that happens is a manifestation of the Absolut, completly transpersonal, and that nothing, whatsoever, is personal or could ever be. Fear and expectations included - simply manifestations of the One.

Exactly! This is SEEING.

What is missing?

Loving,

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Stacy,

What I meant by investigating deeper was that the butt/chair exercice helps me a lot with having "glimpses" of reality, and with focusing on the actual experience, and I feel like doing it on and on. Maybe I should also let it go?

Is there a separate self anywhere? Has there ever been?

No and no. This is very clear to me now.

What is missing?

You mean, if I still feel something is missing regarding SEEING? I honestly do. I don't think having glimpses is the same as SEEING. Is this somewhat true, or am I simply entangled in expectations?

Love
Silvia

[Anastacia42]

Hi Silvia,

Yes, you're entangled in expectations.

You've seen. You said you have no doubts.

You can go on to do 10 Fetters work. There's a group meeting for that. Opinions about whether or not that is necessary vary. You can look at www.findingawakening.com

You've seen no self. You've realized there's no "control" or "free will" & no one to have such things - right? That's all we do here.

You can practice ButtChair or anything else as much as you like, as seeing comes & goes.

Feel free to keep looking, if you wish. Let me know when you're ready for "final" questions. I'll share your answers with other guides, who may have questions.

Loving,

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Hi, Stacy

Let's do the final questions.

Love
Silvia

[Anastacia42]

Okay. If nothing else it will show where more guiding is needed.

Keep your answers simple.


1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Describe choice & give examples from experience.

Describe control & give examples from experience.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

6) Anything to add?



Loving,

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Hi Stacy,

Here it goes. Hope you don't mind me awnsering only a few questions at a time.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No and no.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

As I told you before, I've had memories of a time outside of time, related to my very early childhood, in which there was no self, only absolut freedom. From my experience, the illusion of a separate self is exactly that, an illusion. It begun sometime in my first years of life, although I cannot pinpoint when. I recall it as a change in light - I recall being a baby and being surrounded by light and intense colours, and being a small child already inhabiting a darker and more restricted world. The feeling of a self is all about fear. Fear protects itself. It hás no intrinsic meaning. It is a meaningless loophole.

[Anastacia42]

Great. Yes, that's fine.

Loving,

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3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

At the moment, it simply feels right. I haven't told you this, but about a year ago I had an experience that changed everything. I was walking alone, in a beautiful landscape, and suddenly realized I could not tell reality from a dream. All I could see were differences in degree of percieved realism, not fundamental distinctions. Since then I searched for answers. What LU (and you) gave me was, above everything else, a way to probe and prove this insight. The prescribed exercices were great tools. I now know life is but a dream, and the self simply a dream character. The past few days were weird, exciting and frustrating, all at the same time. It feels like I am slowly arriving at a natural but long forgotten state. Now, when I close my eyes, I no longer feel body limits. All I find are sensations ocurring in spaciousness.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

I can't answer that. I honestly cannot tell the exact moment. But, the funny thing is, my SEEING seems to have somewhat consolidate when you kind of "forced" me to accept that there was no more need for inquiries and the thing was done. I guess most of my expectations were gone only after that.

[Anastacia42]

All good.

Loving,

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5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Decisions seem to happen, but there is no one making them. They are an apparent movement coming out of Stillness. "I" am not real, and therefore cannot have anything to do with it. It's not that I didn't get to decide what to have for breakfast today; it's that there was no "me" there at all. Still, a decision seemed to happen about breakfast.

The exact same thing can be said about intention, choice, free will or control. It's not that I don't have free will, it's that there is no "I" to have free will. Control seems to come from fear/self, but even that is an illusion. There is no self. Control, and even fear, are just apparent movements of Oneness.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

Nothing happens. There is the illusion that things happen; that illusion is just a manifestation of Oneness, and perfect as it is. Couldnt be any other way.

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

There is no "I" to be responsible for anything.

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6) Anything to add?

I just want to thank you, Stacy. Be sure your time and your generosity were very much appreciated.

Love
Silvia

[Anastacia42]

My pleasure, Silvia. This is how I work for world peace - one mind at a time.

I will share your answers with other guides who may have questions. Watch for private messages top right here.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Hi Silvia,

No questions. You have crossed the Gateless Gate.

You should have a private message about our Facebook group.

Much love,