I realize that I’m not a self. There’s no me or I anywhere we looked. I
still get lost in confusion of thought story throughout them day, but I m able to question that process now and look for this me that I cannot find.
Realising 'no self' happens but there will also be periods of checking, and doubting, and rechecking, and that is all normal. This exploration is just a beginning and not an end..
Getting lost in the story will happen..coming to a clear presence also will happen..you now know that they all happen themselves without a you..
Without any controller.. the "fog" might not dissolve right away, however, with the understanding, for the first time you can deal with that "fog" in an authentic way by looking.
As you continue, no much "noise" will bother any more. Daily looking is the very much key.
Emotions and feelings pop out, then disappear, and then pop out ... thats it.
It feels good to be able to step out of story and connect with reality. It feels safer. I certainly sleep Better. It feels different and yet not so different. My life is the same but I am more present to it.
Yes. they say "Before enlightement carry water chop wood, after enlightement carry water chop wood :)
I see that you have seen through the idea of seperate self.
If you don't have further questions i would love to give you the final questions
Ready ? :)