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Let me know if you can find a controller in that walking up and down, getting up and sitting down.
I cannot find a controller that made the body walk up and down, thought comes in saying "I" did that but in direct experience it just happened and cannot find an entity that can claim the action.
Not sure if this helps but thoughts have become very few and far between, not many thoughts are arising since the looking started today.
Imagine for a moment (take some time to visual this in the mind's eye) a scene: one of a little mountain stream which is tumbling down a hillside gully, not far from its source. It has been raining and so the level is quite high. Consider in your mind's eye, if you can, how it flows to the right over a little rock (where, had the level been lower, it would probably have gone around the rock), then the flow goes to the left over a tree bow, and then slows a little in a broader place, before splashing over a small cascade into a pool, and so on down the mountain side. Does it choose any of its directions?
Is it even really a separate entity different from the water deposited in it, the rocks, the depressions in the ground, the grass, weather conditions etc? Is it even the same entity moment by moment, or is it more the product of environmental conditions and water, like an an ever-changing pattern?
The stream cannot choose any of its direction, it just flows by itself based entirely on the environmental conditions it encounters. I agree this is ever changing pattern happening moment by moment. I see that it cannot be different from the water deposited in it, but does seem separate from rocks, trees, depressions in the ground etc.
A. Now, consider, looking back on your day, or week, or your life: can you find anywhere where 'I' clearly autonomously intervened into life, choosing something that is not simply the product of all life's elements, that is not a part of the overall flow, like the flow of the mountain stream?
I cannot find a "time" when "I" automatically intervened into life. It is just a flow like the stream you mentioned. Everything is just happening all by itself without the need for an "I" entity. A moment to moment flow that no "I" can intervene and change.
B. Now please raise one hand in front of your face, and then wiggle the fingers around for a few seconds.
1. Can you find an individual entity there which chose which hand or which fingers to wiggle?
I automatically lifted my right hand and the fingers started to wiggle. There doesnt seem to be anyway to control such finger wiggling it is too fast and to complicated for a ME to do such an action.
2. Did 'you' choose which order to wiggle fingers in, or did it just happen without any decider?
I did not choose which fingers that now seems a little absurd that an "I" entity could do this as its just too complicated. Also too fast for a controller to be able to complete.
3. Did 'you' choose which direction to wiggle the fingers in, or did it just happen by itself without any decider?
Same as above answer, it just happened by itself cannot find a "I" that could have done this.
Thanks again mate
Jay