From Ilona:"self" now, is mostly a small collection of stories of why this process is not happening. For example it thinks it should always feel some elation if this was working out. Or it thinks this may be taking too long, it feels on a deadline. Then of course it sees they are only thoughts and go back to looking where all is well. But it keeps coming back to it. It also gets into life stories with friends and can't seem to avoid them, they seem irresistible. I give it permission cause if I don't they become even more enchanting. Still they bring worries. "I" spends its days with ups and downs, they fluctuate, never quite the same.
Love, Lucid ☼
What to do?
Well it’s a very simple thing that needs to be resolved….
There is this thought I… and once you see that I is just a thought
And you see that thought itself does not think….
It’s very very simple.