Feeling of seeing? Looks like you are looking for a state, something that gives you a feeling. But recognition is not a state, it does not come and go like any feelings. Once it's recognised, it can not be unrecognised. It can be forgotten, but, if you look, you will always see the pattern.Think the expectations at this point have been that the feeling of seeing that there is no self would be stronger and lot more pervasive within me.
When you look with eyes, (not thinking, but looking) can you see something that isn't here? Can you see that which does not exist? Can you see imaginary stuff in front of you?
There is a difference between looking with eyes at what is here, what IS, and looking with mind and seeing images.
No self can not be seen, there is nothing to see. What you see is what is.
It's not like you start seeing no-self, like a new thing. When kid realises that there is no Santa in real life, he does not start seeing no-Santa. It's just like that, no self= no more belief in imaginary entity.
And what is the I that is trying to keep no self in mind as along as it can?
Is there I that can do that, chooses to do that?