Recognizing my non-dual nature

[Secrethippie]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
We grow up in a world that teaches us to be a self, a person that is a free agent in this world, making decisions on his own and that is happy or not. Yet, the moment you begin to search for this self, you realize there's nothing solid to find or grasp. This idea of a self, which we’ve taken as real for so long, is ultimately just that—an idea.

What are you looking for at LU?
I’ve been meditating for over five years, but for a long time, I didn’t believe in something like awakening. Then, about a year ago, I read Awake: It’s Your Turn by Angelo Dillulo, which profoundly shifted my perspective on what awakening really is, nothing more than realizing your true nature that already is and always has been. Since then, I’ve become increasingly aware of my own suffering and discomfort, especially the feeling of being a separate self. Through Angelo’s guided meditations, personal experiences in nature, and inquiry sessions with a friend further along the path, I’ve had moments of clarity—glimpses of not finding anything when I look for a "self." I’ve come to understand that as long as I identify with my thoughts and personal story, I’m reinforcing the illusion.

While I grasp this conceptually, I feel a gap between intellectual understanding and the deeper, transformative realization I’m seeking. Recently, I’ve felt stuck and unable to recognize any tangible progress, which has led to a sense of conflict. More and more distractions and doubts are arising in my mind, pulling me away from staying focused on the path toward liberation.

I feel that at this point, I would benefit from personal guidance and support to help me take the next step—to fully experience, beyond just theory, that I am not a separate self with a distinct experience.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
I hope for a guide who can offer direction when I feel stuck, as I do now, and provide insights that help me see through the mental constructs I've created. I don’t expect guidance at every step, as I recognize this is a journey I ultimately have to walk myself. However, some direct pointers and guidance during difficult moments would be incredibly supportive. I hope this person can help me to create a momentum of not identying with thoughts and continuoulsy questioning my own experience.

I'm ready to fully surrender to this process, and I trust that my guide can help establish a sense of safety and trust that will allow me to let go even more deeply.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
I’ve been meditating for years, much of it with guided meditations on the Waking Up app. As a yoga teacher, I've also trained extensively in the yogic tradition.

Less than a year ago, I developed a deeper interest in true realization, inspired by teachings from Adyashanti, Angelo Dillulo, and Mooji. Angelo Dillulo’s approach, in particular, introduced me to the power of inquiry, and I began to explore this practice. I’ve done many of his guided meditations and started an inquiry practice of my own, though I've struggled to maintain it consistently.

Some inquiry sessions with a friend who has experienced major shifts have been valuable as well, though keeping this practice consistently integrated has been challenging.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 10