Direct experiencing

[Marly6]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
The feeling or belief in an autonomous self who is orchestrating everything is simply an illusion. When trying to find this self, I can not find it, although there is still a feeling of a self, but this is also recognized as a feeling and thoughts about the feeling, so ultimately not real.

What are you looking for at LU?
I have never really talked about this with anyone and I would like to see if I am on the right track. I have experienced a seeing through thoughts and doubts which has been such a huge shift in my life, but still some habits and attachments are there which I'm not sure how to proceed with and some help would be nice.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
A perspective from someone who has been through similar phases of realization that can point out things I might not be able to see clearly.
Also just someone to talk to about this as I have never talked to anyone about this.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
I have been "seeking" for 20 years or more. I have attended some (silent) retreats, read many books and watched countless videos about the subject of awakening, nondual understanding etc. I do meditation on a daily basis. I've had some shifts happen at different points of my life, but overall it's been a gradual process. This year I had a slightly more sudden experience of seeing thoughts for what they are. Also the seeking has pretty much disappeared, although there is still a habit of watching videos etc. But the feeling of there being an active seeker is gone and there is just a direct experiencing happening most of the time.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 10