Thanks so much for sending these over. Been adjusting to this new reality and it's been an interesting process.
1) Can you say with 100% certainty that you have realized that there is no separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
Yeah it's all an illusion, there's no time, space, past, physicality of the universe or the body expect in each moment. It's clear there is no self.
2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how it shows up in experience. Also, through your inquiry, what is different now?
The illusion of the self is created in each and every moment, these sensations of the body this visual field, it all arrives moment after moment. This gives the feeling of continuity or a separate self but it's all just appearances. It's all just a field of something that parts compile into this feeling of "me" or "I". It's different now because there's a knowing of the illusion, that's its a dream land. The feeling of self isn't inside this mind, this body etc anymore.
3) How does it feel to see this?
What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
Now if I look for the self it doesn't feel limited to this body but instead feels expansive and all around. It feels outward instead of inward. There's a feeling of expansion, connection, and peace, it feels nice. The sensations of the body feel relaxing while looking like this. It also feels like lots of things that seemed to matter have fallen away and don't really matter any more. I seem to exist in the dream reality of Scott but when looking at any point can see that that's not what this experience is actually composed of and instead it's a part of everything.
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?
The process of inquiry and looking all built up to a point where I watched my hand disintegrate into the aether or whatever over and over again, then come back together. It was this same field I had been seeing for a long time but finally recognized I was a part of it and it me and it was everything what everything was composed of. There was a moment that felt like everything recognizing itself as one and the same.
5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? Give examples from your own recent experiences to how things happen and how things work.
Well thoughts just arrive so there's no free will / intention / decision / choice / control. I don't know how it works but it just arrives in each and every moment. It like when you're speaking you not thinking of the words first the just arrive. Even in this moment I'm not thinking up the words to type here they're just arriving and I'm not deciding what to type. It just comes. So if that's how thinking works then how would anyone choose anything for themselves if they don't choose what they think?
b) What are you responsible for? Give examples from your own recent experiences to how this works.
This I don't know. If there's no control on thinking what can you be responsible for? If I see myself everyone and everything as one in the same then there is an inclination to take care of it all since it's serving me /us / everything but I don't know what you're actually responsible for.
Thanks Kento! Hope you're doing well my friend :)