I apologise for how slow I have been to respond. I’ve been very busy with work and that’s been taking all my focus. I have some down-time next week so I hope to put a lot more focus on this enquiry again.
I can see that intelligence is a label, a layer of judgement on top of what is, created by thought.HOW do you SEE intelligence? How does intelligence ITSELF look like?
What color it has? What shape? How big it is? What is its texture?
Can you actually SEE intelligence without thinking and imagining?
If you drop or ignore all thoughts and mental images, what is left of it?
If the rules of this enquiry are to disregard all thought, then there is no intelligence - only this. Any kind of verbal or written description of experience is deeply inadequate in describing this. If I’m trying to describe how something tastes or smells, I can point to something that has a similar taste or smell. In the case of awareness though it includes all and therefore there is nothing to compare it to.
In that sense there are no words that can come close to an accurate description of awareness. I want to argue for intelligence as a way of describing the fundamental nature of what is. But I also have to concede that it’s coming from a thought and a sense of ‘me’ that wants to be clever. :)
I have been examining this and it seems pretty clear that there is no central controller and that all these movements are just happening, just as thoughts are happening, without anyone running the show.Please spend as much time as you can in the midst of your daily life observing and noticing how the body moves, how it feels, what it does.
You can notice how the legs are moving as walking happens.
When walking, what do you do in order for the legs to move?
Are you making walking happen, or it just happens automatically and effortlessly?
When you sit down, or stand up, is this something you do, or something that is happening?
Notice all sorts of sensations in the body.
Are you making the sensations happen, or they are there, without anyone or anything making them to be?
When breathing happens, are you making it to happen, or it happens automatically without anyone making it happen?
When preparing food, or eating, washing your hands, typing, brushing your teeth, dressing up, are you making the hands move, or the hands just move by themselves?
Is there a central controller somewhere in the body, from where strings are pulled to lift the arms, and move the body? Or all of it just happening automatically?
I have been looking for times when the sense of ‘I’ is most evident. For example in interactions with people, where there is fear of looking bad.
What is it that might look bad and what is it that fears the judgement of others?
It requires quite a complex arc of thought which imagines something being perceived by another person and their subsequent thoughts based on that perception. Thoughts about thoughts about thoughts. It’s really a huge fabrication and yet it is so well rehearsed that it happens almost instantaneously. It’s all predicated on the idea that there is an identity that must be protected.
I am still not free of this identification with the imagined ‘doer’ and decision maker. Do you have any advice on how I can work with this?