Sorry, I really have the feeling I have been thinking about what to say! Before writing to you,
It's ok, but now let's look :-)
By who or what is been identified as "I"?
There is an experience of"I", or, I don't know what to call just....(." being..").....but, other aspects of the "i" are not real, or true. Memories, worries, plans, for example. So, maybe "I", is not the correct word.....there is always the same experiencing, (being), which has always been identified as "I", even as experiences change.
What gives that information?
Do thoughts have a power to fail away?
So, even if I don't identify this as a "name", this experiencing is here, and this experiencing is in part what was thought to be the "I". So, do some thoughts about this "I" fall away, and just the "experiencing/being " I is left?
Ok, so actually, there is no "I" writing , but there is the experience,(or experiencing ?), of writing happening. Hmmm. Especially with writing, there is sense of choosing WHAT to say. And, I KNOW! .......I am not choosing the thoughts, or the order, so I can't be choosing the words...........there is no chooser! There is something stubborn about an inability to view choosing differently.
There is an experience yes, this is undeniable.
But is there an experiencer in the experience?
Is there something which is choosing the experience?
Or it is what it is.
Is there a possibility to not choose what was chosen in this very moment?
No?. How writing is happening?
It's just happening..... I have no idea how
Simple and good looking. Good job, Tannis :-)
Well, sometimes I feel a relief in just relaxing into an action.........cleaning the kitchen, for example. I think , I can just experience everything about a moment, without making a mental list, and going immediately to "what's next". .."what do I have to do. Take care of, be careful not to forget?"
I have been , more vocal in expressing irritation. Or, the expression of irritation just comes out of My mouth , before I have had time to think. It's more honest than biting my tongue, which is what I would do in the past.......I wonder if that's related at all, but, it is different for me.
Everyone is different and has a different expression. Yes, it can be said that with less thinking, actions are more spontaneous and authentic, no matter the outcome :- )
Are you familiar with Bahiya Sutta (supposedly form Buddha)? – here it is for you.
In the seen, there is only the seen,
in the heard, there is only the heard,
in the sensed, there is only the sensed,
in the cognized, there is only the cognized.
Thus you should see that
indeed there is no thing here;
this, Bahiya, is how you should train yourself.
Since, Bahiya, there is for you
in the seen, only the seen,
in the heard, only the heard,
in the sensed, only the sensed,
in the cognized, only the cognized,
and you see that there is no thing here,
you will therefore see that
indeed there is no thing there.
As you see that there is no thing there,
you will see that
you are therefore located neither in the world of this,
nor in the world of that,
nor in any place
betwixt the two.
This alone is the end of suffering.” (ud. 1.10)
Please read it several times, and check it in experience, line by line, if it’s true.
Let me know what you find.
Remember. You're dreaming.