you did a good lookingThis feeling, is a thought. I don't catch the self taking ownership, after a decision, but, I cannot find any decision except as a thought......coming from wherever (nothing, nowhere, and gone into nothing, nowhere)
yep, it's just a thought :-)Its just a thought. Its not real.
Is there a difference between "decision type of thought" and usual type of thought?The only difference, which is not 100% of the time, is action is often taken, but not always, after decision type of thought.
If yes, what precisely?
Ok. with these exercises and looking we are focusing how exactly the decision is happening. It's essential to see the difference between reality/experience and THOUGHTS ABOUT reality. We are learning to distinguish between reality (experience) and imagination (thought). And you are starting to see this, just keep on going :-)There is no feeling, sensation. I can see thoughts more clearly, as , non existent.....there is no sensation to them. I have to keep looking here, as there is resistance to no decisions.
Let's make another very simple excercise now
Place both hands on a table in front of you, palms down.
When you have done that, rest for a moment and then raise one hand in the air.
And now be very, very vigilant. Don't rely on thoughts, examine the immediacy of your own experience.
Do this as many times as it's possible and each time inquire:
What is it exactly that is choosing which hand to raise?
What is it exactly that is raising the hand?
Can a separate individual or anything that is doing the choosing be found?
Can a ‘decision maker’ of any description be located?
Make this as many time as it's possible during the day, but also investigate in the simple activities - what to eat, what to dress, what to read..etc. Incorporate looking in the midst of your daily life.
Nothing. Its just ...dreaming. I don't have clarity here. I will look some more.
What ever is typing, sitting here, listening to a dog barking, performs daydreaming, experiences daydreaming.
It is very simple. Just look.I feel confused, I am not clear, and certain of things, but I have questions to look at. I answer, but for sure I feel I don't have answers, and, have more LOOKING to do. I don't answer the questions and assume they are "done".
Can a doer be found doing all these?