There seems to be continuity, there seems to be patterns that play out in time. But right here right now, this very moment is timeless. Time comes up as a image of what happened, as an image of what might happen. Check this now. What did you do yesterday at the same time?
Okay, that seems accurate, as there is a continuity, and patterns do play out and repeat. Yes, this time yesterday, I was visitng a friends house. I made a mental picutre trying to recall where I was this time yesterday and the first image that came up of yesterday was a snapshot of me being a the climbing gym, but then remembering that the gym closes at 10 PM and it is currenlty 11 PM and so what did I do after? oh yeah, I visited my friends house as it is in the area and talked with some people who are staying with that friend, and these were mostly images.
How does the memory arise? What is felt? An image, thought, sensations, idea? Try again and watch. What did you do last night?
It arises as a image or a series of images, and after the image appears, there is a feeling that comes up that is like "ahh, correct!" and then a feeling a remembering the rest takes place but not much more takes place as there are no additional movies or images.
What do you notice? Where does the image show up? In the past or about the past?
The image would be about the past as I do not believe myself to being going into the past to then see these images, they are about what what I remember happened, as it is if looking at a photo that was taken from my eyes at one or two spots at the climbing gym(when I walk into the main room, and where the moon board is) and same thing at friends house (similar images, one walking up onto his porch, and the second being inside his house looking at JVO)
Now think of the time you were 5 years old. What memories do you have?
Again, snapshots: one of looking down into the old familial living room with the TV in front of the sliding window door, images of my childhood friend, a view of the fort we routineley made, an image of what my bedroom looked like from standing at the door, there are more from around then but again, all images.
Take a pause from reading and remember something from childhood. How does the memory show up? Describe what you see and how you perceive it, the mechanism of it.
a picture just appears in the mind. this can trigger feelings, some around mood, some around certainty, some of surprise at having remembered or unforgetting something. a picture show up, not too much detail, like I wouldn't be able to zoom in, just enough parts for a narrative to be remembered or known again: like a room or some furniature which has a familiar feeling to it, perhaps a person or object that is critical to the memory, and then the narrative is known or not, and if known, it is known as a sequence of events or a short story.
Can you see that images about the past come up on demand in here now?
yes. at least in these examples. Not remembering something can happen, and the narrative can be relayed verbally but the picture and the feeling of certainty do not show up, or take a while to do so, but this may be separate from what we are looking at.
Thanks for sharing about your challenges in professional life. Feeling debt can be heavy and there may be many feelings about that. Do you want to explore this and see what gifts there are to be received here?
Certainly, the way you have worded that has me highly intrigued. how do we explore this?