Thats right. We are not chasing after any experiences. Just looking at what is right here now to see if we can find what thought says is here. Thats pretty much it. Nice and simple.Well I've felt so much at east the last few days but finding that "fuzzy nothing" isn't happening as often, kind of sad about it, but kind of not, I just feel like things are as they are, and yeah again, even this "thought" is a conditioned response, right? Its all right here, I just have to remember it.
That's good, yes, come back to whatever feeling is here, then you can look at the thoughts and say, hang on a minute, is that really true ?Please forgive me, I'm not sure what you mean by hoovering. Do you mean, being the "fuzzy nothing" or not being it? Or you mean, the difference between doing anything at all versus thinking about it? This is something I've realized a few times. I do a lot of thinking about how things are supposed to be, or the way I should be viewing things, or the way I should be approaching this or that to make the realization, and then its like, hey...what about what you're feeling RIGHT NOW? What about just noticing what you really are RIGHT NOW? And this also seems like a good way to kind of cross the bridge a little bit. But I still always fall back into the thinking about it and not just allowing it.
Apologies for talking about hoovering, i live in the UK and it's a term we often use for using the vacuum cleaner on carpets. My suggestion was supposed to be to experiment with a cleaning task and just notice the difference between cleaning and thoughts about cleaning.
Thanks for writting about your expectations. It can be very useful to look at these and see if they are realistic. From what you write its sounds like you can see how some expectations could get in the way.
Yes, indeed !To be honest I don't know what you mean when you say is my heart awake. But I think maybe you mean, my heart is already awake. If I just allow, what I need is already here.
What do you think you would be experiencing ?Your question "how would it be different to what you are experiencing right now in this moment?" I think the answer would be exactly what you were alluding to - I'd be experiencing it and not thinking about experiencing it.
I have another question, but leave it for another time if its enough already. A few times you have refered to things as being conditioned. What do you mean by this ?
I'm glad to hear you are still feeling at ease, remember to keep being curious, kind, gentle and that you don't need to try to hard or resist. There are no wrong answers, thoughts or experiences. We are not trying to change or fix anything. We are just exploring to see what we find and what shows up. What thoughts are saying and if it is true.