I have taken each question is sequence, looking no further than the question at hand.
Just check, are you here now?
Yes, In this moment there is presence, aliveness, It feels there appears to be no here, but rather just now.
Not as Janet, not as the body, not as a person, but you are here, don’t you?
Yes, there is only presence, not even "you" but rather presence, aliveness.
Can you say that I don’t exist? You exist, don’t you?
Yes, there is existence, However, when the statement "I exist" is said or internally spoken, there appears a different flavor, that being, a grounding, anchoring. The state of existing, the experience alone, does not, the 'I'ing, does not change the fact that there is just existence, there is awakeness, this 'I'ing feels like an addition. The 'I'ing feels less spacious, grounds it, pulls it back so to speak...
Just notice that you are always here. You can never not be here.
But is there anything observable that is you?
No, There is this sense of body, but this is body.....Is it that there are these familiar experiences of the body, that this body, that has a tendency to have very familiar patterns, that are misidentified as a 'Me'? How this body rests, feels, tolerances, and ways of redundantly operating, patterns.
Are you the body, or body is something that is known?
Something known, the bodies has tendencies, but that is all, all that appears through the body.
Is the body the knower of this experience, or the body is known AS an experience?
Known as experience.
What about of thoughts of Janet? Is the thought of Janet the knower of this experience?
No thoughts of Janet is not the knower of experience. Actually thought seems as though it knows nothing, thought is not the known.
Do you exist as Janet? As an autonomous separate entity?
*** NOT SURE WHAT HAPPENED..How could this question feel different or allude to anything other than what has been previously seen?. I am not sure how or why this stopped me, I am surprised when the name 'Janet' is internally spoken that I get tripped up in such a way as to get tangled. I have been trying to spend some time looking closer at how throughout my day there are so many subtle ways in which There is an acting out or familiar sense of being in this body that is being identified with as "Janet" Sometimes it is seen and is sensed as a personality type, with a label, I am just so strangely, stopped at this noticing and wanting to look more closely at how, this state of being in the world, is being assumed as a separate agent when defined as "Janet" I have never really felt as though I have given much to a name, but there is a noticing, an attachment, to behavior or habitual patterns of the body that are "Janet like". As I type this, I am wondering and remembering that my life's issues with strong self criticism and self consciousness and trying to fix this person called 'Janet' has embodied strong identification with even the subtle and even rather benign ways of presenting.
Identification as a person is so imbued in so many ways..and a question that points in a similar direction as the others can reveal places where identification is being stored.
Without identifying as Janet or me, something else is going on, something that is here. Does this sound true
Well, something is definitely going on.
You are here… but is there anything you can identify with it and say “this is what I am”?
Perhaps I need to examine this label, and more of the ways it appears to be noticed, even like driving a car to work, how I like to dress, or walk down a particular path when going outside, hold and cuddle my cat a particular way, this personality or person. ? :0
Thank you, for all of this..