Posted: Sun Aug 30, 2020 7:19 pm
Lovely thought by the way.... ;-)It still feels like there is some positive or negative value here.
It is ok and for the moment we will leave it at that, you will find that this idea will appear again and again for a while, just rest with it.
And then the story starts and even better you notice, yeah!It feels a bit more like it's ok that it's here today. I mean there's nothing I can do about it really. Then the story starts - 'it's ok today because there was nothing you really needed to get done... just wait until tomorrow'.
It is the same like what you write later about resistance. Stuck and unstucking happens. Sometimes this sometimes that.Yes - I see the story start off and go spiraling, and then sometimes getting stuck inside it.
No need to add weight or importance to it.
You most certainly do get more clarity, beautiful work!I think more clarity is arriving re. resistance - at times it seems clear that it's just an idea - the idea that 'I' am resisting 'that'. So maybe there is pain. And then tightening sensations/emotions come. Or maybe trying to move the body to be more comfortable. All just sensations / actions / happenings. Interpreted as resistance. Who's to say that the tightening emotion or the moving is different from the pain - or a response to it? (although there's a little voice right now trying to tell me it is). They are all just sensations and there is no 'I' controlling any of them. Even though it seems like 'I' am responsible for resisting or not resisting. And trying not to resist is just another story about resisting the resistance and you end up in a big tangle and frustrated. The idea of 'trying' is, I think, just that - another idea - it's a story about some sort of battle inside, in the head, of an 'I' trying to change what is or achieve something. When all is there is either the action/outcome happening or not.
Often whatever turns up brings us into a muddle, one story after the other, whatever appears starts a story, happy merry go round - and oh, everything soooo important.
Take your time and share what you find. This is just about noticing and having a closer look.Need to look more at this. Not much came up like this, but will be on the lookout - I think maybe some are 'hidden' as present-perfect tense - statements that say things like 'I'm rubbish at getting up in the morning' (implies always - in the past and in the future).