You might have resistance to this post, since it’s questions and challenges the beliefs you held. But please read it very carefully several times, and spend LOTS of time investigating this.
You have some blind spots you are not seeing, and I’m pointing those out to you.
You'll probably say it's all wrong but I've answered this to the best of my ability without thought already. How does one even write the words to communicate without referring to previous knowledge and past experience.
I believe you that you are trying to answer things to the best of your ability, I don’t doubt that. But my job is to point out for you when you are not actually looking at your experience, but only your THOUGHT INTERPRETATION of experience. And you are not seeing that you are doing this.
It’s not a langue or communication problem. You are not seeing something very important.
I never said nothing exists and I never said it was "my" awareness.
You’ve never said that MY awareness? You are repeatedly saying that. You said it in your previous post, and it this one too.
This is form your previous post:
All that is here is MY awareness. I'm aware that stimulations are occurring and I'm aware that I'm aware of them through MY awareness. Words don't work to explain this adequately hahaha
And this is from your latest post:
Colours, shapes, sounds tastes, smells, thoughts and i am aware of them, but as they are ever changing they can't be considered "real" only MY awareness of the sensations/experience/stimulation is real and you asked what is real.
You are clearly believing that there is an I + awareness, and the I owns awareness, it’s mine.
Is it clear to you that what we are investigation here is whether there is an I at all?
Is it clear that what we are investigating if there is a subject of experience, if there is an experiencer or knower or aware-er at all?
It can't be shown but we are aware aren't we?
What we? It seems that you are not understanding intellectually that what we are investigating here.
There is no we.
There is no I.
There is NO subject of experience.
There is nothing separate in the background being aware and waiting for things to be aware of.
There is NO separate I which could be aware.
There is NO we which could be aware.
The knowing of experience is happening, but there is NO knower, NO aware-er. NO I that is aware.
Please read this above comment many times.
Do you understand it intellectually?
Do you think that this reply is coming from looking at experience directly?
Colours, shapes, sounds tastes, smells, thoughts and i am aware of them, but as they are ever changing they can't be considered "real" only my awareness of the sensations/experience/stimulation is real and you asked what is real.
Or rather it’s an intellectual interpretation of experience, with a certain intellectual conclusion?
What makes you think that experience cannot be real, just because it’s changing?
How do you come up with this idea?
The reason why we did several exercises to look at experience, to see clearly that the ONLY REAL thing is EXPERIENCE itself. Everything else is just a fictional thought-fluff.
You are deeming the only real existing thing (experience) to be unreal, and believing the unreal (seeming knower, awareness, experiencer) to be something real.
The reality is the opposite. What you are talking about IS THE ILLUSION itself.
So all I can say is I'm aware of experiences.
You might thing that you are describing experience, but you are not.
Where is this subject (I) that is aware of experience? Where?
V: Show me this awareness. How is this ‘awareness’ is perceived exactly?
As a thought? A sensation? An imagination?
R: It can't be shown but we are aware aren't we?
So awareness cannot be experienced in any way, and yet you still think that there is awareness, and I AM IT, or it is mine, MY awareness, as you said it several times.
I didn't say it was mine. It's just awareness. I've no other way to describe it. But you asked me to do inquiry.
You are contradicting yourself, since you are talking about your beliefs and not about experience. But you are not seeing it, so you assume that there is a communication problem here. But there isn’t.
I've inquired and my experience shows that I'm aware of experiences.
No dear Rick, experience doesn’t show that. Experience doesn’t show an I that is aware of experience.
You are saying that there is an experiencer (which is YOU), and this experiencer is aware of or experiencing experience. But this is the illusion itself.
Where is this experiencer?
Where is the ONE that is aware of experience?
Is it in the body? Is it in the head?
I'm not the experiences. I don't know I'm even the awareness
It’s not about whether you are the experience.
It’s about whether there is a you to be an experience or awareness at all.
The question is NOT about WHAT I AM… The question is whether there is an I AT ALL.
Do you see that this is your stumbling block? That you are trying to figure out what you are, instead of investigating if there is an I at all?
Where is this I which has knowledge? Does this I even exist, other than the thought ‘I’?
I have knowledge of being aware of experiences.
No my body is eating but my body became aware of the experience of hunger.
So far you said that YOU are aware. But now you are saying that the body is aware.
HOW do you know that the body is aware?
So now you are saying that YOU HAVE a body, and the body is aware?
So not awareness is aware, not even ‘I am aware’, but the body, which you own?
This is what I've tried to do. What is real is what I'm experiencing in that very moment. Not my thoughts about it or how I imagined it may be. Just the experience in it's raw form.
So how you come about the idea that experience is not real, because it’s changing?