I'm glad you clarified this, as actually I was indeed assuming that the aim was for the illusion of the doer to completely stop. Good chance I would have just kept trying, and trying, and trying again, until I went mad or got there :)It’s important to mention that we are not aiming for the illusion of the doer to completely stop. It’s enough to see it for what it is, just an appearance. Remember, this is just the beginning, not the end. Don’t expect a final stabilization (yet). That would require lots of further looking and time.
I was happy to do the set of questions below again. As the first time a week or two ago I struggled with it: it was a lot to take in & a bit tricky. And in some cases I was relying too much on intellect. Especially the part about who the me-character is. Now it was still a lot, but I felt that it was more deeply intuitive than before.
When sensations and thoughts occur in my experience, they are happening. Doing takes place in my thoughts, when a thought takes ownership over what happened.What is the difference between a happening and a doing?
Sensations are just happening. The me-character does not do them.What about sensations? Are they happening or the me-character doing them?
Feelings are just happening, and are given. The me-character does not do them.And how about feelings? Are they something the me-character does or something that is given?
Everything in my experience when looking is simply given.Now look, what is not given?
This question was a really wonderful discovery, and now that I see it deeper I feeling like jumping very deep into it. It gives me a feeling of awe.
Everything in my experience is happening effortlessly, and doesn't need my doing.What is not happening effortlessly and needs your doing?
Everything in my experience is just spontaneously arising, without me doing anything.Is there anything that is not just spontaneously arising?
I can't find anything that the me-character is doing in life, except chattering away (and taking that credit). It seems to want to convince me that it is a self-directed autonomous entity. But actually I only experience it as an idea that is given, just like any other thought.Is the me-character doing anything in life? Or is the me-character given? As an idea? Or as a self-directed, autonomous entity?
This was the question I struggled with the most before. I am more confident now than I was before.