Yesterday I discovered it felt cleaner to write in a passive way / past tense, as without an I in the sentence it was easier to see clearly what I was writing. Perhaps it also led me to write partly from memory, so I now understand why it's better just not to write in the past tense.Why your replies are in past tense? Are you replying from memory?
I agree. I actually spend minimum an hour a day - sometimes more - asking the questions and looking (I keep a small notepad of the questions with me), plus I look all day during and between everyday activities. Each of the hundreds of times I'm asking per day, I look at direct experience.So every time I ask a question, you always have to look afresh, to see it again and again what is being pointed it. Can we agree on this?
When I look behind the thought about whether to fight, I only find sensation, and sometimes a thought. I cannot say with certainty if this is a 'no me' or a 'no self'. But I do not find a me or a self.T: There was no actual me or self behind the thought about whether to fight. Just another thought.
V: Can you actually see this experientially, or rather this is just an intellectual understanding?
When I look for a person learning or being taught, I cannot find anything except changing sensations.The exercise taught YOU?
When I search for the ME, I only find my experience.Where is this ME, you are talking about?
When I look, I realise I don't know the answer to this question anymore.Thoughts don’t need to be fought?
I cannot find a Tom who can decide whether to fight or not fight a thought.So there is a someone, there is a Tom who could decide whether to fight or not fight a thought?
I cannot find this Tom, who supposedly can decide that fewer thoughts are better. Only my experience.So where is this Tom, who supposedly could decide that fewer thoughts are better?
I cannot find a Tom, or show him to you. Only changing sensations and thoughts.Where is Tom? Show him to me.
When I ask this questions, I only receive sensations and an occasional thought as answers.How is Tom perceived?
None of the five senses perceives Tom or shows me where he is.By which of the 5 senses?
I only experience sensations and some thoughts when I ask this question.Are you 100% sure that you can clearly see experientially that there is no thinker of thoughts?
I cannot find where the decider lives or resides.Where does the decider live or resides?
When I look specifically in my head, and throughout my body, I cannot find where the decider lives or resides.In the head?