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Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Tue Jul 28, 2020 8:38 pm
by Anastacia42
Good.

And remember "supposed to" is a story, too. It can seem scary to SEE, but remember self already doesn't exist and depression already doesn't exist. Nothing changes, except you are no longer caught in the lies/stories of something than never existed. And that is a happy thought, isn't it?

Relax. Look. See what arises.

Let me know if you get a relevant Worksheet done.

Love,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2020 10:33 pm
by Kyleen17
Sat with it again. What I seen when I questioned it was that it had no answer. It is the question and the answer. They both came from the space. When I turned my attention away from my mind and to the awareness it grew and eventually most stories left (with maybe tiny whispering that I knew were not the awareness) and my heart started beating very fast n again the fear. Tried to relax behind it.

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2020 11:34 pm
by Anastacia42
Were you able to relax, knowing there was nothing there?

Have you written a worksheet?



Loving,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2020 9:18 pm
by Kyleen17
Were you able to relax, knowing there was nothing there?
Yes. It took focus though, the pull the fear has is strong as well as the pull of the stories about it. When I’m in that space it feels like it expands horizontally if that makes sense. But who is able to see the nothingness?

And yes worksheet is done!💖

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2020 9:34 pm
by Kyleen17
Also...another side note...I’ve been recently getting a strong feeling that things are “done”. I don’t mean with this forum, I mean in life in general. Almost like it’s already completed like the life I’m living is pre-destined for instance and there is no choices I have to make. Have u ever had that experience?

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2020 1:06 am
by Kyleen17
Had an insight while reading the gate less gate keepers was I seen that since there is no one in me controlling my thoughts and emotions even though I took responsibility and credit for it. That is the story of me. This whole time I felt like I was making decisions I really wasn’t they were being made through me. So the whole past of kyleen, the storyline I thought it was my choosing but there is no one in there. I feel that’s part of the illusion.

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2020 10:12 pm
by Anastacia42
Hi Kyleen,

Yes, to all of that. If there is no "doer," how can we be deciding or controlling anything?

Glad you have the Worksheet. Would you please post it here as neatly as possible so I can follow it?

I had some health appointments yesterday afternoon and all morning today. I will reply again soon. Looking forward to your Worksheet.

Thank you!

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2020 5:55 pm
by Kyleen17
Sure. I wasn’t sure if I was allowed to post TW here.
Judge your neighbor:
Jason hurts me because he argues with me and blames me.
I want Jason to take accountability for his actions and stop lying
Jason should clean up after himself, not run away from himself
I need Jason to not judge me and not argue with me all the time.
Jason is a liar, victim, petty, wants to debate everything
I don’t ever want Jason to blame me or judge me especially when I’m struggling with my mental health issues.

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2020 7:08 pm
by Anastacia42
Good. Is this about the fear we've been discussing?

Loving,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2020 10:51 pm
by Anastacia42
I was expecting a Worksheet about fear or depression relevant to finishing our guiding here. Is that what the fear & depression are about? Jason?

Loving,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2020 2:36 pm
by Kyleen17
Yes -it all ties in- these are the surface issues that trigger the fear/depression but if u want I can write a jyn directly on the emotions.
Alittle off topic but is breathing a direct experience?

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2020 3:04 pm
by Anastacia42
Good morning,

You asked if breathing is a DE. Not exactly. DE is only the 5 senses and Thought Arising, but part of breathing is DE. Which part? I'll let you check that and tell me.

That's fine about the Worksheet, then. I imagine that will become clear as we do The Work.

I've tried doing TW in forums and it is laborious waiting on replies to the questions. What should take about a hour or less takes days Do you want to do it on a phone call or teleconference? If so, remembering that I'm in Mountain Time and I work Monday - Friday 7 am to about 4 pm Mountain (9 to 6 Eastern), when do you have an hour or so to do this?

I could do today, but not this morning. i want to just have some downtime. But later today up until as late as 5 or 6 pm Mountain could work. Or a weekday between 6 pm and 8 pm Mountain.

Give me a couple of times that work and we shall go from there.

Much Love,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2020 6:05 pm
by Kyleen17
Thanks! Tonight or tomorrow night works.

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2020 6:26 pm
by Anastacia42
Okay. how about calling ne tomorrow evening about 5 pm my time, 7 pm your time? (Eastern, right? )

Loving,

Re: Truth Seeker

Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2020 10:13 pm
by Kyleen17
Perfect!