Then how do I do any of this? What do I do? I don't want to be an addict. I had had some hope coming in to this that I could finally break free from this pain and experience freedom. Now I feel like my soul is absolutely crushed. I just need help in finding the truth. What am I doing wrong?
Please note that I don't intend to abandon you, but there seems to be a fundamental
misunderstanding in what I could offer here. Seeing truth doesn't mean that you "break free" of
any kind of pain. Do you think that you first have to break free from something to be free?
Seeing truth is seeing truth; everything that may come with it is a byproduct, and there is no
promise that something will happen which you expect truth to bring. That is a subtle way of
selfish, manipulatory thought, in which you hope that something called truth will bring only
what you wish to bring.
At least, that is my own experience; I was forced to confront one of the worst pains ever,
which appeared after I first went through this process. As I look back on the process,
that was what I needed the most, and I could do that because I knew what was true.
If you expect that your pains will disappear after the successful completion of
our conversation, I would have to say that may well not happen.
Don't people seek because of their suffering? I don't understand. I was lead here for a reason, I feel. The forever part is that desperate part of me that hurts so bad and feels like theres no light at the end of the tunnel.
Yes. And are you trying to get rid of those feelings?
Please tell what you want to do with them, not what is said to be right to do with them.
Having said that, I would be very glad if I could be your help in a way
you truly need to be helped.