I wish for guidance

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KilluaGod
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I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Thu Mar 05, 2020 8:37 am

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
There's no self to take ownership of our experience. Awareness encompasses the whole sensory field. There's no special sensation(self) that can observe other sensations. The self is relative and mixed with infinity, yet we take it to be solid and everlasting. This makes us feel small and vulnerable. This misattribution is suffering.

What are you looking for at LU?
Awakening. I want to put an end to the search. I don't believe this will take very long if I look correctly. I'm here to correct my vision. I'm looking for a 1-on-1 mentorship to keep me on the right path because I tend to intellectualize this stuff way too much. I want to see.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
A precise guidance to discover who I really am. I expect compassion. I expect clarity. I'd like to be able to check-in with someone to make sure I'm not consulting the practice. I think the conversation will set me straight.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
Mainly mindfulness of breathing. I've dabbled with zen, self-inquiry, tibetan buddhism, vajrayana buddhism, mahasi noting, samatha, vipassana, yoga, pranayama. I've been practicing for five years.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?
10

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Fri Mar 06, 2020 7:14 am

Hi KilluaGod. :)


Thanks for your intro. My name is Bananafish, and I'm a guide in this forum.
I'd be glad to help you to "see," as you put it.


Let's get it straight from the beginning.


Could you point with you fingers to where you are? Where did you point at?
What's there?


Warmly,


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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Fri Mar 06, 2020 6:04 pm

I pointed at my face. There are sensations.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Fri Mar 06, 2020 8:26 pm

Hi. :) Is there anything in that sensation that suggests there
is a separate entity called "self"?
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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 12:04 am

It seems solid and persistent. Like if one were to ask me on different occasions, I'd just choose the same spot of sensation.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Sat Mar 07, 2020 12:55 am

Hi again. :)

What would that be if you drop the thought of it being solid and persistent?

What would be other descriptions of that particular sensation?
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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 1:05 am

Hi. It's like a space.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Sat Mar 07, 2020 2:29 am

Is that "space" something separate, divided, and limited?

Please feel it, observe, and describe it further; freely, with lots of
adjectives, as much as possible.
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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 4:50 am

So this space is in the middle of my forehead, third eye area. It extends into my skull and sits there. It's like I'm where a bandage in the middle of my head. It's squarely ~2 inches wide and tall. Now I'm trying to answer your second question and I feel like if I say it's divided or separate, I'd be making it up. I start to feel centered in my whole body. But then I sense my forehead and there's a sensation hovering there.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 4:51 am

It's like it melts then it comes back.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Sat Mar 07, 2020 5:21 am

Are you 100% sure that it is "you" or "self" that is there?

What if you've lost all the stories about yourself and concept of what
you, or a person should be?

What's there?



Also, try dropping all of the above (the stories and so on), and please feel what you call "my whole body."

Close your eyes and observe the sensation regarding your "whole body." Does it have a definite,
clear boundary? Is there a boundary between it and other things?
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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 5:54 am

No I can't be for sure that sensation in my forehead is me.
My body seems to go as far as my sense of touch allows. The touch sensation from the body isn't separate from the part of the couch I'm sitting on. It's like they need each other.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Sat Mar 07, 2020 6:00 am

How does I feel to see that?

Do you feel any kind of shift I perception happening?
How do you see the "self" now?


Please note that it's perfectly ok if you don't feel any change at all. :)
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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby KilluaGod » Sat Mar 07, 2020 1:08 pm

I feel more open. Applying this to me hearing and sight, I feel like a puzzle piece integrated with the rest of the puzzle.

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Re: I wish for guidance

Postby Bananafish » Sat Mar 07, 2020 1:19 pm

Great to hear that. :)

How do you see the "self" now?
I'm available for Skype or Zoom face to face conversation. Drop me a line and we could arrange
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