How about this- there is awareness of fogginess. The awareness is not foggy in itself, there is knowing of fogginess. Knowing is not obstructed by fogginess.
Sure, I'm ok with that. There is awareness of fogginess but awareness is not itself foggy. Ok. Yes agreed.
Let’s dive in that fog. Is it really here? On one hand you can see that there is no gap. On another you say that there is. Which is it? Does knowing of fogginess makes a gap between you and life? Or is it all life showing up as you and fogginess?
There is actual gap or actual fog. These are metaphors. When I say that I feel distant from.life, this is a metaphor!! Do you understand about metaphors? There is no actual gap or fog or distance. There is no actual physical distance between me and life. Saying that I feel removed from life is a metaphor.
How can I describe it without using metaphors? One way to say it would be that I feel only half alive, only partially present to what is occuring.
Well, no, you are not separate from the whole, you only think you are. And that thought up character can not become the whole. So let’s turn attention to wholeness, it’s already here. Everything is happening by itself. Including thoughts, feeling, sensations, ideas, frustrations etc.
Yes, yes, yes, I understand all that. But understanding is not liberation. There is no current experience that everything is happening by itself. Some things are, and some things aren't.
The solution to imaginary problem lies in stopping imagining it.
So explore, what is here underneath the idea of separateness, how do you notice wholeness?
All I notice is impatiance and frustration. Again there is intellectual understanding but understanding isn't freedom.
I am not physically seperate. There is no actual physical gap. Any description of gap or fog or distance is purely metaphor.
Even if the I is purely imaginary, i see no way for I to stop imagining the I.
I am still an "I". There is me here writing this, making choices, having responsibilities, regrets, fears. Being the "doer" of this body/mind. Being responsible for making things happen or not happen. And I am talking about making things happen as far as projects or travel or work, or housing, or relationship, I am NOT talking about making breathing happen, or seeing or physical sensations. I am not talking about involuntary bodily functioning, I am talking about higher level social functioning in the world, making choices and taking actions based on those choices.
Ok that's it for now