What part of the world do you live in and what is it like? I am in the south of England.
Thank you for your very comprehensive answers :-) Yes, commitment and determination are needed . Yes, lots more to come.Hello Again Simon,Ive been thinking and writing down my answers to these questions all weekend.I hope you find my answers relevant to our search.The more I learn the more I realize there’s so much more.Thank you for taking the time with me.I see this was a big commitment from both of us....1)Does it have to exclude Life is here for us.
“I guess the thought shows me life doesn’t need us or our help to exist.Life doesn’t need our rules..A happier thought belief would be that it cares but I don’t see the connection yet.”
Have a think about the need to know of a purpose for life. Can you be relaxed surrendering to not knowing? What would change if you did know?)Could it be both at the same time.
“I guess but I don’t understand its purpose if the me doesn’t exist”
“Like it or lump it” Do we need to do either? What if we make no judgements about it? This is a great area for enquiry. If we don’t have a say, what can we be responsible for? Have a look at this question and let me know what comes up please (feelings as well as thoughts).3)What are the differences between life and us.”I don’t feel like we have a say. Its like it or lump it and I hope that’s not true. Its just a thought and feeling I guess”
Next time you find a situation happening and your mind says “lump it”, observe closely who is making the judgement and where it comes from, can you identify anything in reality or is it just thoughts. Thiose thoughts that come up, are they about reality or stories, what happened in the past, or are they going into the the future?
4)Is there separation between a sensation and the experience of it.”Not sure I understand question”
Lets do some work here and actually look:
Please close your eyes and run your fingers along your fore arm, or any other part of your body, perhaps try several. Is there a you in this experience, is there a forearm, leg, hand, etc and a finger touching these. The two parts of your body touching, is this just a thought laid over a raw sensation of touch.Is there an experiencer and an experience, or is it all just one sensation. Touch sensing is happening.
Then keep your eyes closed and listen to any sounds occurring. Is there a me hearing, is there a location out there or in here, can you separate the sound “out there” in an external space and time from the hearing of that sound, or is there just the sound happening and no gaps between? Can you see a barrier between something making the sound and the awareness the sound is happening in. Is the sound inside you, outside you, both? Are the thoughts attributing the sound and making judgements and stories about it actually happening in reality or are they being added to it?
Go to the park for a walk, or by the sea or countryside. Whilst there, notice everything that is going on using all your senses actively, weather, air, grass, trees, animals, sounds, people, insects, temperature, and including any thoughts or feelings that are going on. Now, look for a line or separation in all this experience behind which is a 'me' and beyond which is 'everything else'. Can such a line or edge be found? Try this at places you have felt good at and like the experience you get there.
Another good exercise is to sit quietly face to face with your partner or a good friend and look into her eyes for a few minutes. Don’t actively communicate in any way, just look deeply and experience (try to from the silent mind you have found rather than the analysing mind). What comes up as emotions and what do you see?
5)How am I finding this believing less in thought good points bad points.”Love this question.It causes me to turn to my awareness and ask it if what I’m thinking is truth.Gives me more of a desire to meditate.Theres not much bad about it.Thanks for the question”
Good news that theres no bad news!!!
6)Can you describe this awareness,what properties does it have?is it changed or affected by thought or experiences.”No,Its not changed by thought.Seems to either tell you or makes you be at peace without giving the answer.(I do wish I understood my awareness more than who I’ve always thought I was).”Properties?Im unable to answer at this time.”
Try sitting within your awareness during meditation and then becoming aware of that awareness and what is happening in it. Don’t concentrate or think about the awareness but just be conscious of its presence. How does being in that awareness feel? When you did the eye looking exercise with a partner, was any awareness present, what did you see?
7)How is awareness (I)separated from what is experienced(life).”It’s as if it stands in the shadows and awaits my recognition.I seem to engage in the experience separately. Though I would wish to be mor connected to my awareness”
The exercises above may help with this. Also when you meditate and still the mind you become more connected, just a process of practice makes this happen more and more. The process is about letting go and just experiencing. It is normal to just have glimpses in the beginning but eventually its possible you will be aware of awareness al the time
8)Is there an edge or line to be found between the “you”and sensations or thoughts ie life?”Again I can’t answer that question at this time because I don’t find the relation between them”
The exercises above may help with this
9)How is an (I)related to awareness.How is a we (all sentient beings)related to awareness.”Wow another good question and not enough time to answer in a sentence.It makes me wonder if that’s why we are here!.Kinda the purpose of life.Who ever will lose themselves will find themselves...I could be way off track from what your wanting me to see”
You are on track 😊
10)How is my awareness different from any other aware beings awareness?”I have pondered this question and my only guess would be its all the same once you’ve discovered it”
Bingo. 😊. This is why many Buddhist (and Hindu) teachers say “you are already a buddha but don’t know it”, and why folks talk of “waking up” as a natural way of being, removing wrong old beliefs and seeing what is, rather than forming any new beliefs.