In DE, the only belief about the I-thought *is* the I-thought. The I-thought is subtle, sometimes more visual than verbal, and sticky. I can't actually find anything other than the I-thought.What is it exactly that is believing in the I-thought?
I think some reification happens in meditation because of this consistent experience of sitting down to meditate, then thoughts happen, then at some point there is a sense of "snapping back" to realize that "I got lost in thought". So there's a sense of identity based around that continuity. But the identification is only ever a thought, however subtle. Even "I am the body" is a thought following a sensation.
In DE, I can't find the exact location of the believer. Behind the eyes is just sensation and imagination. The body is separate from the sense of looking out of the eyes and therefore cannot be the exact location. I can't find the exact location. It's frustrating, butWhere is the exact location of the believer of the I-thought?
Where is the feeler?
Where is the exact location of the feeler?
Emotions arise as feelings which are part of what we label as the body. So shame and frustration appear to be happening to the body. It might follow that what's really happening is just a sensation and then a story about that sensation. Thoughts happen, automatically, after everything, which creates a constant stream of analysis. But in DE I can't find anything other than sensations and thoughts; I can't actually find an *I* these sensations are happening to.And what does shame is happening TO?
What is that feels the same?
I'm sorry, but would it be possible to spend a little more time on this? Thoughts are stuck on seeing this as 'whether or not Awareness believes it is Awareness'. I know this is wrong but I cannot honestly say it has logically sunk in.Please read your above comment carefully.Already there is stimulus and response. So seems like only difference would be in whether or not the illusion is believed. Whether or not I believe the thought that "I am Awareness".
Do you see that there is a belief that there are two selves:
- the I who believes the thought (self 1: the I itself that believes)
- that it is awareness (self 2: awareness)
So this I has to be something else than this assumed awareness in order to be able to believe the thought “I am awareness”. Can you see this?
Can you see that it’s even logically fails?
Thank you so much for all you do. Hope you have a blessed and safe day,