Thanks for your patience.
Yes I feel what you describe ... the sense of being, sense of awareness, out of time-ness ...And there is sense of being, being aware, being here now.. besides all the passing by experiences.
Is sense of being, beingness, isness, something that comes and goes, or it is always here?
Do you need to do anything in order to be?
The isness is always here, nothing is needed, it's unchanging and always as peaceful.
The experiences are stressful but I can feel the isness, and an awareness of this, the fear and the unknown are here too ... but they don't stop the isness.