Thank you for your honestly. I’m going to be very honest with you too. My comments might sounds blunt, but I don’t know any other way how to help you to wake up from the fearful dream you’ve created.
V: And from what? Is there an actual threat, or just an imagined one?
M: Not sure there’s just a fear and frustration one voice saying an I is require to be in control and another saying it can’t be found
Please ready my above question. There is no actual real threat, ONLY an IMAGINED one.
You’ve created a story, an IMAGINATION how you imagine seeing no self would be like.
You IMAGINE that there is a you, and you can lose control.
You IMAGINE all sorts of negative consequences of losing control.
You IMAGINE that you might not be able to provide for yourself and for your family.
You IMAGINE that if you lose control then you won’t be able to control your life, and everything will go downhill.
You’ve painted a pretty fearful IMAGE of how seeing no self would be like.
And the problem is that you are not seeing that it’s YOUR IMAGINATION that you are afraid of, since you believe that this is not just a fantasy, but rather a fact.
This picture illustrates nicely what is going on.
You’ve created a fantasy and accepted it as a fact.
You are not seeing it as a fantasy, but rather you believe that it’s a fact.
You believe that seeing no self means losing control.
And since you believe that this is a fact, you are not seeing that it’s not true.
You behave as if this were the truth, as if indeed there were a you and you could lose control.
And this is indeed a fearful picture.
And you are afraid of this image.
You are afraid of your OWN IMAGINATION.
And since you are afraid and in a stress response to this fearful future picture, you are missing the most important point. You are missing the way out, the freedom out of this dangerous future scenario.
And that is that this is NOT how it is.
That this is NOT a FACT.
This is NOT the TRUTH.
This is just a FANTASY.
That it’s literally impossible to lose control. IMPOSSIBLE.
Since there is no you who could lose it.
There has NEVER EVER been a real Mike. NEVER.
So it’s literally impossible for Mike to lose control. Impossible.
And even in the moment of the fear of losing control, there is NO Mike, no you, no person having this fear.
You are literally afraid of your own imagination what you believe to be the facts of no-self.
But it’s not.
You are the one frightening yourself with a fearful fantasy.
Can you see this?
The thing is that until you become open to sincerely investigate your imagination and be open that it’s not a fact, then the chance of seeing through the self is close to zero.
Nobody in their right mind would do something that will bring such bad consequences than what you imagine.
So the circuit is closed.
So you have two options:
Either you change your predisposition about this imagination being a fact, and open up to REALLY and DEEPLY investigating its truthfulness, and as a consequence, letting it go… then, and only then there is a chance to investigate what is here now.
But if you continue believing this fearful image, you are blocking yourself and cutting off from looking and experiencing what is actually here, what actually is. If you choose this rout, that’s all right. You don’t have to do this inquiry. You might not be ready. And that’s is completely OK. You might be read a few years later. But not yet.
So I would like to ask you to seriously consider how would you proceed.
Please read this post and the other one I wrote to you a few weeks ago about this same topic of fear.
See if there is an opening to letting go this image as a fact and be open to accept intellectually that control cannot be lost, since there is no Mike and has never been ever, who could lose anything.