Hi Skygazer74 - do you prefer to be called something else?
This sounds great, I’m happy that the boundary exercises led to an insight for you. How are these settling in your experience? How does it feel?
It's been an interesting couple of days. I've been walking around in a daze at work. I feel like I have an "energy" in what I would label my chest. I've been looking the mirror and the image that is seen doesn't seem like "me".
What was the illusion of separate self? Can you describe what it was and how this has changed?
The separate self is a mind made entity that exists only in thoughts and beliefs. When the thoughts are believed/given energy, a feeling of separation takes over (which is just another thought). Seeking, resulting in suffering, was carried out to try and get whole again. A hidden belief that I had was that "I" was located in a body. When doing the looking exercises, I was able to see that, based on direct experience, there is no boundary to the sensations felt in what I would label my body. There is actually no boundaries that can be found in any of my actual experiences. The mind (thoughts), however, construct artificial boundaries. Once the thoughts about separation were seen through, it was realized that there never was any seperation.
What are you noticing during the day that is different? Does life feel different?
I'm noticing that an "I" or a "me" doesn't get attached to everything, making everything personal and about "me". When those thoughts do arise, they can be seen through. Sometimes it takes a little while, but eventually a thought along the lines of "who is the 'I' being referred to" comes up. Since there is no thinker of the thoughts, the thoughts are seen as any other experiences that are arising in the now - not good or bad - they just are.
Senses: when you look at an object, can you find any division between subject and object in DE?
No - there is only seeing.
Can you find anyone looking, can you find your eyes or anything seeing?
I cannot find the seer of the sights. When looking only at direct experience, seeing happens. Thoughts sometimes arise saying "of course you have eyes" or "of course there are objects over there", but in direct experience it's just colors and patterns. It's the mind that creates the objects and says that there are eyes/a brain/a body.
Where is the seeing?
There is no boundary on the seeing.
Same with sounds, is there any division in experience between source and hearer? where is sound heard?
No, there is just hearing, with no discernible boundary.
Sometimes when you respond it sounds like there is someone experiencing senses, an entity behind the sensing, or collating data?
Have a look to see if there is a sense of a watcher, a controller or a decision-maker?
I don't want to rule anything out, and I want to be thorough in my explorations, but it doesn't feel like there's a watcher, controller, or decision maker. It feels like experiences happen. I am open to exploring this further if you think that there's something not being seen.
Then close your eyes and see if there is a line between you and out there, between you and life itself. If yes, where is the boundary?
Is there an inside and an outside of Life?
No boundaries can be found
Is there something which is not included in the movement of the whole?
No - it's just one big happening.
Is there a witness that is watching life happening from a distance?
Is witnessing part of the one movement too?
Experiencing and thinking happens. There is an awareness of the experiences, but it is not independent of the movement.
Is there anything which is not just happening?
No. Thoughts might state otherwise, but they are also just happening, the content of which no one controls.
There's a lot of stuff here - please enjoy your festival and feel free to wait until you get home to respond so you don't have to type on your phone.