Thoughts are ‘not reliable source of information’ NOT because thoughts are less real than sensory experience. No.
They are unreliable, since they are making all sorts of claims which are NOT MATCHING the experience.
When you start to investigate if a thought is telling the truth or not, it turns out that more often than not, they don’t. And you can check the validity of thoughts by LOOKING and SEEING what is happening in experience to see if what is happening is the same what the thought is about.
Can you see what I’m pointing at?
Yes, I see what you’re saying- that thoughts are the overlay on top of experience that doesn’t necessarily match what’s actually happening. My thoughts just argue that why are we giving more weight to experience than to thoughts. But that just creates so much confusion for me. I see that thoughts are always commenting AFTER the fact, about how experience is, or BEFORE the experience, to say how it’s going to be. The thought itself appears presently but the content is always a story that usually isn’t happening presently.
Please do the exercise again. Set a timer for 10 minutes with the intention of having only positive thoughts all along.
How do you set the intention to have only positive thoughts?
Do you make the intention-thought happen? Are you doing it?
The appearance of making it happen is still so consuming sometimes! It’s so frustrating that I still get so caught up in the content and forget where to look sometimes. But when I sit here and try to “make myself” think only positive thoughts- when I look in the right place, from where they arise from, there is no “me” creating them. Even though these positive thoughts are arising in accordance with this intention, there’s no “making” it happen- only the thought that says so. The intention to have only positive thoughts also just arises. Thoughts say “I” set the intention because I read your directions and followed them but it just happened that way.
What do you DO EXACTLY when you repeat lots of positive thoughts?
Nothing! There’s just the positive thoughts and then another thought appearing saying that I’m trying really hard to have positive thoughts. But the “trying really hard” isn’t anywhere to be found.
First, where do you get those positive thoughts from?
Is there a storage place somewhere and you go there and choose and pick the positive thoughts you want to repeatedly think?
definitely not! They just appear.
And how do you perform the act of repetition?
The repetition of positive thoughts is just happening and the fact that it’s seen as repetition is also just another thought.
Are you the one making the decision of repeating a certain positive thought?
If yes, how do you do it exactly?
It’s so hard to break the notion that “I” am doing it! But when looking for the source it’s so obvious in some sense that it comes from nowhere. There no act of actually doing it whatsoever.
K: The judgment of any thought was already an awareness of both good and bad.
V: Are thoughts appear in awareness?
How does this awareness is experienced?
Again, there I am getting caught up in those convincing thoughts. It’s more like that along with the appearance of a thought, and the appearance of a thought that says “that previous thought was positive”, there also arises quieter thoughts that deemed as negative and unwanted. In direct experience there are no thoughts as well as something called awareness- there are just the thoughts appearing.