So are you saying that it still feels like as if Nameless sits down to look for the truth?
As if Nameless would do the looking?
And striving for seeing the truth?
Yes, yes, and yes
Why is it important to experience truth?
appears to be much less suffering, and generally speaking, i prefer to know what i'm dealing with, what's 'real'
Can truth be experienced? By whom? And how can truth be experienced?
It's all the same thing: knower of truth, truth, and knowing of it---all same thing, one thing. experience, experiencer, and thing experienced--one thing
Is there such thing as ‘experience of truth’?
no, that implies two things
Is seeing no self is an experience? No, it's a thought
A different experience perhaps than what normally/usually is happening?
seeing/experiencing through the lens of duality, being lost in thoughts increases or creates suffering.
Are you after a state? What are you after exactly?
experience for me is the 'further away' i am from being lost in thought, the less suffering is experienced. i want peace. who/what wants peace? so, looking at that question right now, seeing that those are just thoughts, brought peace, of which i've not had a lot of in the past two weeks. i want peace, but i think i am peace...looking...i am peace. i am everything that arises, and somehow none of it at the same time.
Why how things are (whatever or however they are) is not good enough?
fear sucks. now, i've seen there really is no such thing as fear. there are sensations, and thoughts label them as fear and tell stories about the fear---when they're believed, there is suffering, when the thoughts and sensations are just witnessed there is just pain--which i find tolerable, and when the witness itself 'disappears' there appears to be zero pain and suffering.
i feel like i have pieces to a puzzle, but i can't put it together. the other 'shoe' or penny hasn't dropped yet, and 'i' think that's where the sense that something is missing comes from. i NEED to find a way to remember to look and just label things color, sound, etc all throughout the day. at this point, i'm not very good at it
Thanks for the questions; they helped move my mood up a couple notches