Great! :)No, I haven't given up. And I won't. :)
Experience is experience. That’s all.I ram into question that what then is the experiencer if not me? I somehow can't accept that I don't know what it is.
But there is no me or I that could be that experience.
Experience IS. But I/me/self isn’t.
Experience exists. But I/me/self doesn’t exist.
The I/me/self/experiencer is just IMAGINED. It’s just a fantasy.
It’s all right. Just keep looking and searching for the I/experiencer.I don't understand why I always slip into that "me" or "I" mode. Still, I can not find that experiencer, no matter what I do.
This needs to be seen hundreds if not thousands of times, before the belief in the self gradually starts to fall away.Searching, searching, searching and not find that brings about the realization.
Maybe because there is NONE?V: First, where is this EXPERIENCER EXACTLY? – localize it
Where is the one that has senses and could experience through its senses?A: I can't localize it. Like before. It is impossible to point that out, where it is located.
Maybe because the experiencer is just ASSUMED?
Maybe because the experiencer is just a FANTASY?
Yes, they are LABELLED as ‘tree’, but a label is not the AE of tree, but the AE of THOUGHT only. Can you see this?V: Please tell me what is the AE of a tree?A: It has colors, image and smell, which are all labeled as a tree.
The colors labelled by thoughts as ‘tree’ is NOT the AE of a tree, but the AE of COLORS only. Is this clear?
The smell labelled by thoughts as ‘tree’ is NOT the AE of a tree, but the AE of SMELL only. Is this clear?
The sensation labelled as ‘touching the tree’ is NOT the AE of a tree, but the AE of SENSATION only. Is this clear?
The thought about a tree is NOT the AE of a tree, but the AE of THOUGHTS only. Is this clear?
There is ZERO AE of a tree. There is no such thing as the AE of a tree. Is this clear?
‘Tree’ is just a conceptual thought overlay on the AE of colors + smell + sensation + thought labels. Can you see this?
What is the AE of a color and the AE of an image?It has colors, image and smell,
What is the difference between the AE of color and the AE of an image?
All right. The seeming body is there.V: “I encounter more things” – WHAT does the word ‘I’ points to in this sentence?
WHAT is it EXACTLY that encounters more things outdoor?
WHERE is the one that could encounter more things outdoor?A: This is a problematic part. I can't find or point out that "what" or "I" is that encounters things.
Word I points in to my body and "me" as experiencer. Still, experiencer can't be pointed where it is and those encounters (like smells, sounds) are still there, it is really nothing that this body have to do for them to exist.
But is there ANYTHING INSIDE the body, experiencing the world outside?
Search through the whole body from head to toe for the experiencer. Especially search through the head for an experiencer. Where is it?
Is there anything looking out of the eyes, and experiencing/seeing the world out there?
If yes, where is this experiencer/seer?
What if the reason that the experiencer cannot be found is because there ISN’T ANY?V: And by the way, WHAT is it exactly that can or can’t EXPERIENCE with the senses?
Where is this EXPERIENCER you are frequently talking about? Where?A: I still can't say/find where it is....
Do you expect to actually find something? Like finding a non-experiencer, or a no-self?