Many thanks for explaining. So it looks as though some sense of separation is coming out of comparing the past 'blissful' experience with THIS experience right now, and finding a difference, is that right? Wanting to get that experience back? Feeling that THIS experience is lacking in comparison to THAT experience. Is that right?
Right now is that experience anywhere except in memory (T)?
Can THAT experience (T) be let go of in favour of THIS experience (E)? Please spend some time considering this and let me know what sensations come up, as well as answering the question.
You have raised some really good questions here, Claudia. Would you like to look more deeply into thsese, once you have answered my questions above?This thought of expectation is also there because in a way, maybe because of the senses objecting everything, it is hard to see myself as part of this moment. I don't know how to explain this but, as I type this email, it is like I am here typing this email, and there is the sound over there from the other room. You have said before and I could see that it all happens in me, so it can't be separate from me. So maybe I need to analyse more close this sense perceptions. And what THIS moment really is. Does it happen in time? Is there time apart from me?
There is move to be friends with this moment, yes there is. But as long as I see this moment as separate from me, there will always be effort. I think the problem may lie there. I don't know what IS this moment? Actually is there a moment? In my mind there is. It makes IT into something. But I am starting to question this.