Sure. I am not sure much has changed :( I do truly appreciate you re-asking and continuing to work with me on this! Thank you, again.
5) Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life?
I still have real trouble understanding this. Yes, it still seems like thoughts decide, intend, and chose. No, when I wiggle my fingers there is no thought in experience that chooses to wiggle the fingers or how to wiggle. There isn't even a thought that decides to do the wiggling. There was the reading of your earlier post, then the seeing of the hand wiggling its fingers - no noticeable thought in the middle. But it still feels like thoughts "choose", for example, what I will eat for lunch today. Then I end up eating that thing for lunch. Thoughts do not decide/intend/choose on a micro-level (how am I going to move my right leg next?) but they seem to on a more macro level.
But why does it matter? Deciding/intending/choosing/controlling are still just thoughts. They are waves in a sea of thoughts that are all the same. They are not real (although it seems to me they can, occasionally, affect reality).
Do you make anything happen?
Hm there is no me, so not quite (unsure if that was your point or that is being pedantic). Still feels like thoughts make stuff in the real world happen though. Thoughts -cause-> body movement -cause-> stuff happening.
Please try to describe the process as best you can, even if gropingly. Don't forget to give some practical examples from your everyday experience (even if there is no real 'you'!)
- Me walking down the street to the train station
- [T] Oh no I forgot my sunglasses!
- [T] Hm should I go back or is it not worth it?
- [T] I don't have any morning meetings today. Okay, I'll go back
- [E] Body moving around and walking back home
The three thoughts there seemed to make the experience happen.
Also I think thoughts don't often
cause things to happen. Often they happen by themselves (by some other part of the brain? some other mind? who knows). But "do thoughts make anything
happen?" seems like a yes.
What are you responsible for?
"Responsible for" is just another thought. It exists only in thought and as such isn't a real thing. This one I'm confident about.
Thank you and much love,