Thank you for the response!
So in (E) can intention be found, or can it only be found as a thought assumption (T)?
When I look, only as thought assumption.
As you go about the next day:-
1. please look for any real intention in actual experience (E), or can it only be found in (T)?
Yes, there are thoughts and there are sensations of what my hands/body is doing but there is no intention or autonomous control of what happens. It just happens. As I notice this, though, I often have a tough time telling what we can call autonomous control and what is just life. E.g.
(E) noticing tv, watching tv
(T) I had to be at my friend's place at 4pm
(E) Noticing clock
(E) Noticing time
(T) I should go
(E) Getting up sensation
Here it seems like the first (T) definitely influenced the body and subsequent experience. But isn't this also just 'Hursh' living life? There was no autonomous control here outside the flow of thought arising and subsequent thoughts and actions reacting to it.
2. please look for any decision-making that can be found in (E), something Hursh can definitely autonomously take credit for (E), or can these only be found as a 'thought claim' (T)?
Yes, the decision making is all in (T). Some doings by the body correspond to decisions in T, but most do not - the body just moves and does things. Also it's unclear how the (T) makes the body do things. Both just seem to happen separately.
3. Thoughts comment (T) on decisions, intentions, control, SURE. That IS what they do. Is that ok that they do that? Does that mean that they are responsible for anything? Is it ok just to let thoughts roll on by (like clouds in the sky, or like a pet dog barking at passing birds), without needing to take their contents seriously?
Yes, this is something that is starting to happen - letting thoughts roll by. In experience, there is no visible connection between thoughts and body-movement or experience. As mentioned, there is correlation (they sometimes correspond) but it isn't consistent.
4. Where there is an urge or a preference towards this or that (apparent choice), is this urge something that can be chosen, or is it just a part of all the elements, the flow of life at a location which has always been known as 'Hursh'?
Lots of thoughts over this in the last 2 days, especially "just a part of all the elements, the flow of life at a location which has always been known as 'Hursh'". This is resonating more and more (although not fully just yet) - thoughts coming and going and sensations coming and going, but very little intention or energy going into doing
life as much as seeing it unfold. I seem to go in and out of seeing life this way.
Re: urges - the urges themselves seem no different from any other thoughts. They exist then go away.