So what is your conclusion? Is this understanding or experiential knowing instead of more knowledge?
This undestandig for me (so far) is only intelectual clarity... is not gut level experience... I can see the mechanics of self but they are only more information...
Yes a sense of self is needed for the body to survive, does this sense of self need to disappear?
Uhmm not really.. it will still be useful for this Felipe character to play..
What is wrong with it?
As I said to you before, what is wrong it is the identification with the character, the character sometimes i very disfunctional...on another level, the character is just playing out...but I dont know how to see trough the charachter and see that I am not bound by it...
Can you see that having this sense of self does not mean there is a self. For months there was focussing and looking, where is it?
what I see is that in one level there is the story.. and in another level there is the powers that we attribute to that story...the story is fictitious because no self is found besides the story...where is it?
I know you dont like me to read stuff in other places lol, however i was reading what means self-concepts in wikipedia... and there was a phrase like that .. self concept it is the image that each person has about themselves...so this is what happens with self..it is a self image created by the brain and that image foundation is that says "all this thinking and attributes are pointing to a real person" but that is false ! it is just a web of thoughts, beliefs emotions...
iswhere you have assumed a self to be anything there at all?
no, what is found though are thoughts about self... feelings about self.. but no self is found in direct experience.. now makes more sense why the self it is so fragile, because it is just made up of thoughts and qualities that are bound to change, always !
Just look and tell me exactly the experience right now, what is there now?
there is a body that is appearing, sights, sounds, thoughts...there is a felt energy experienced also..
What are you completely sure of?
that there is existence here...life..
is self there?
again the idea of self...The habit of self is here...but that doesnt mean that there is a self...
Does what you call I point to something real that can actually be seen or you can be directly aware of like all else or is it just imagination?
again that I thought it is just a mental creation...it is a thought saying there is someone inside the body or the head that is the subject of the experience, but those are just thoughts trying to point to something...
Ok, honestly I think Im starting to see this... this is just a subtle realization that the self is only made by thoughts that there is a self, but no self is found...the brain is just deluding itself adding a self to the equation but self is just an assumption...