One more, but big ASK. If you see mark "?", it means take that question for a serious work. Don't miss any...
If there is no choice maker, choice making is happening by itself, same as thoughts which influence it, right? "I" thought just steps in after with judging this choice and claiming as it was his job. True, or not?There is no choice maker, i only assumed there`s a category of thoughts that tend to that task. The choice is made based on criteria based on past experience or estimation, thoughts based on thoughts, being put in motion to perform a task
This practice... What influenced to start it. Can you remember what thoughts, other people words, or read book done that? Is it really was you, who decided to start it?After starting
Can you look and confirm that fact, that mindfulness = awareness just arising spontaneously? There is no YOU who decide and choose to switch it on, or off?mindful, which i`m far from being able to do continously yet
Yes, that very nice sense of self, which is deluding us. Still it is only sense, only feeling which just IS. Same as other feelings. It last form moment when you wake up till moment when you fall asleep. That happens. Where this feeling is in a deep sleep?However, even if i look and don`t see an "I" when they happen, in the big picture they still feel like they are "mine", ocurring "in my head"
That "my space", right. You cannot be that space, because you are aware of it, right? If you can perceive it, it is not you, right? WHAT IS LEFT THEN???i see anger rising as an object, and the fact that there is a space between it and myself allows me to not be controlled by it, and it fades away. But it still feels as my space in which it`s appearing.
If even that space and awareness about that space is not you, then - do YOU exist at all?
It is obvious truth to realise, nothing "deep", nothing mystical: no god, no light, no nothing...
That indicate real honesty. I appreciate that. You are near. On the edge. Be together till you get this, ok?For a few seconds, the thoughts called Frustration and Anger took a sit near
Is it YOU saw them? Or SEEING (awareness) arose spontaneously? Look how that happens.but i saw them and they went away
Of course YOU can't see... Because there is no YOU. Thoughts arising -> dialogue happens -> mindfulness happens -> frustration about dialogue happens -> mindfulness switches off... and again and again. There is no you who can influence that. Look how it is.I cannot see the one that is having this dialogue, probably that`s why it sticks.