To return home

[Bananafish]

Is that memory of seeing or seeing itself?

[Jstar]

Hi Kento

Right now, it is just seeing. And memory of seeing appearing and disappearing as thoughts/images.

Regards

[Bananafish]

Is "seeing right now" a memory of seeing or seeing itself?

[Jstar]

Is "seeing right now" a memory of seeing or seeing itself?

'Seeing right now' is seeing itself.

[Bananafish]

When you recognize "right now," is it right now?

[Jstar]

When you recognize "right now," is it right now?

Hi Kento
No. It is not. It is fleeting and hence cannot be pinned down.

[Bananafish]

Hi Star. :). When is "just seeing"?

[Jstar]

When is "just seeing"?

Hi Kento

I don't know. Time is in the seeing or thinking. When I look, I have no way to know the answer.

[Bananafish]

Very nice that you don't know the answer. :)
What is "just seeing"?

[Jstar]

What is "just seeing"?

Hi Kento
Seeing, hearing, sensing and so on, ever changing, along with a feeling and a bunch of thoughts that it is all happening to me, which cannot be found when looked for.

[Bananafish]

Hi. :). Ok, and where are you stuck at, when in the end you can't find that thing to which all is happening to?

[Jstar]

where are you stuck at, when in the end you can't find that thing to which all is happening to?

Hi Kento

There is still an expectation operating at times that something should happen - a visceral response, awakening, expansiveness, change of perceptions etc. that will bring an end to the search and finally can rest.

[Bananafish]

Why make up that "something" which ends your search, rather than ending it right now?

[Jstar]

Why make up that "something" which ends your search, rather than ending it right now?

I don't know the answer.

I wish I could stop, but I dont know how to stop it. I am not sure what will I do, even if I could stop the search. How will I find what is really here or what am I truly, if I dont look for it. I see in direct experience, everything that changes. 'I am' is certain, undeniable, but it doesn't feel like anything in particular.

[Bananafish]

'I am' is certain, undeniable, but it doesn't feel like anything in particular.

What makes it so certain, when it isn' anything in particular?